If I Remember You

21

Isabel

"What the hell were you thinking?" He added furiously under his breath as he looks back at MJ who was talking to another waiter for our order.

"We both know if I didn't make it happen; you'd never ever would have done it on your own" I snapped back looking at him expectantly.

"It wasn't your choice to make" He fights back waving his arms up in the air desperately as I clench my jaw angrily.

"Except I had the choice to see you happy or miserable and I decided to go for the first" I retorted glaring at him as he scoffed bitterly.

"Decisions are the hardest things to make Peter. Specially when it is a choice between where you should be and where you want to be" I added as Peter fisted his hands in anger.

"Stop with your stupid motivational speeches" He snaps bitterly at me as I roll my eyes at his rudeness.

"You're stupid for not fighting for MJ or Ned. Didn't you say they're the most important people in this world? Well then do something more than just watching them from a distance" I challenged as he crosses his arms in fury.

"They're my family not yours so stay the fuck out of it!" He declares in a deadly tone that made goosebumps run through me.

"Enough. Both of you" Wanda scolded us as MJ made her way back to us with her drinks in a tray.

"Two cokes and one sprite" She calls out placing the drinks in front of us. "Ready to order?" She asks again as I nodded.

"Two large portions of the house original" I ordered with a small smile.

"Sauce or no sauce?" She asks looking down at me with soft eyes.

"Sauce. Mild. Please" I requested as she nodded. "I'll bring some complimentary fries for you to snack on while we get those started for you" She tells us looking over at us.

"Thanks MJ" Peter said almost instinctually making MJ suddenly stop fidgeting with her pen and snap her head in his direction.

"uh-your welcome" She mumbles eyeing him more carefully. "I-I know you" She tells him as Peter eyes grow wide. "You-you do?" He asks her his eyes hopeful.

"Yea-yeah I think so..." She tells him with a tiny smile directed at him. "You're the guy from the donut shop back in New York. You ordered a coffee and said your full name to me." She adds retelling their encounter.

"Oh right. Uh-ye-eah I did. Good coffee. Yeah" Peter replied as MJ chuckle.

"Their coffee tasted like dirt but hey dude if you like it by all means" She teases him making him chuckle nervously.

"Well I gotta round tables. I'll get your orders in as soon as I can" MJ smiles waving the piece paper in the air.

"Thank you" We all said as she walked off.

"Hate me all you want, but don't tell me you regret what I did because we both know you're not." I muttered looking at him as he glares me down.

"I've come to regret a lot of things in life. But I know this won't be one of them" I added as he rolls his eyes irritably.

"You have no idea what I went through with them. All the freaking times I've wish I could take it all back. So, if anything. I had to be the one to fix this when I felt ready to do it. Because I got my best friend and girlfriend into this mess and I didn't need you to swoop in and fix my life" He  lets out through clenched teeth.

"You are such an unbelievable idiot. I didn't want to fix your life. I wanted you to love the broken pieces" I expressed slamming my hands on the table harshly.

"But you know what? Fine. I'm sorry for caring. I'm sorry for trying. I'm sorry for it all. I'll stay out of your life" I concluded bitterly looking away from him as Wanda just look back and forth between me and Peter.

"Yeah. You constantly judge Wanda but you should learn your boundaries too Isabel" Peter snapped hurting my feelings almost instantly.

Asshole. Sorry for trying to get your girlfriend and best friend back you little bitch.

"I think you both should just take a deep breath. Isabel had good intentions. It was intrusive but good-hearted nonetheless." Wanda said in my defense and I silently thanked her with my eyes.

"And Peter you're right. It should've been your choice and Isabel should've consulted you before doing this. But she's right in that you would've never done it because you care too deeply and too purely about their well-being" Wanda adds as Peter looks down at his hands.

"I'm doing things my way Isabel. And that's it. Ned and MJ are my family and I'll decide what's best for them" He speaks directly to me meeting my eyes with a certain fire and ugliness to them.

I nod in understanding. "I know my boundaries now. I'll stay out of your way. Figure it out. It's your life" I said curtly shrugging my shoulders indifferently.

Like my abuelita would say: "don't blame people for disappointing you, blame yourself for expecting too much."

I guess it hurts that every time I learn to trust somebody, they show me why I shouldn't.

Simple things always become too complicated when you expect too much.

And expectation is the root of heartache.

I should know better by now. But I won't make that mistake again.

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