Changes {foolish_gamers x OC}

I- Introduction

There's a few things I think you should know about me before we begin this complicated and twisted story of how my life changed over a discord call.

These things are absolutely essential to who I believe I am.

First and foremost i'm a perfectionist, I like things to be done properly, I tend to wish life would happen exactly how I want it to... and thus far, exactly that has happened. Junior year of high school I received an offer from the University of Virginia, my dream school, to swim collegiately. All of my hard work finally paid off. My parents had always wanted me to swim in college and I  finally lived up to their expectations.

Secondly, I have really bad anxiety. Not the kind of anxiety you feel before you present a school project, but the kind of anxiety that makes you pick at your cuticle skin until it bleeds. The kind of anxiety that makes you stay up all night unable to sleep. It's something i've dealt with since the start of high school. I haven't quite figured out how to deal with it but that's a story for later.

Now you might be wondering how I can be a D1 athlete and also have crippling anxiety. Trust me I don't know either. There is one thing however that seems to pull my life together and I don't think I could live without it.

Valorant.

I know what you might be thinking "haha fuckin nerd" like yeah yeah I play video games. Get over it. Growing up my brother Nolan and I would play minecraft together for hours on end. Installing questionable mods and plug-ins and sneaking behind our parents backs to play all night. We had the time of our lives though. Nolan is 2 years older than me so when he left to go work for Mr Beast i was completely alone. Not to mention my relationship with my parents was extremely rocky. Yes I was a dedicated swimmer and took care of myself but I also fucking loved video games (and still do). I would stay up for hours playing anything from Animal Crossing to fps games like Valorant. Let's just say my parents did not like that...

I miss my brother a lot but he's very busy with his job... not to mention literally being famous. I had opportunities to go see what he does and meet the crew but I turned down every opportunity. Mostly because I was scared. Yes, I was comfortable with who I was as a person, but the thoughts and opinions of other people still scared the living shit out of me.

Finally, the last thing you need to know about me is that i'm very independent.  After Nolan left, my life seemed to fall apart. Yes I had swimming and I had videogames, but I ghosted all of my friends. Not intentionally... I just lost all interest in other people. I worked so hard to become the person I wanted myself to be. The only people I would talk to were Nolan (occasionally) and the few girls on the swim team that I liked. In addition, during this time I logged almost 10 hours a day on Valorant.

The first big change I experienced in my life was meeting Karl Jacobs. One day, Nolan insisted I came along to the Mr Beast set and I finally gave in. They were filming some video where they give a bunch of money away. Nolan introduced me to Karl on the first day of filming. My anxiety was getting bad again which meant my hands were shaking a lot. I guess Karl noticed this so intentionally, he grabbed my hands while giving me a tour of the set. It really calmed me down. He showed me how all the filming worked for the video and all of the "secret insights" of the Mr Beast crew. Karl was overwhelmingly kind to me. His smile lit up the room and he made me laugh harder than I had ever laughed before. I loved him. Not in a romantic way but in a platonic soulmate way. We clicked instantly. I felt like I could trust him with my whole life. He helped me talk about my anxiety and other things I was dealing with at the time and all he did was listen. He would listen to me talk for hours and hours. It was like free therapy. After meeting Karl, things started to look up again. I became more social and open to trying new things.

My Friendship with Karl continued to grow for 2 more years. Which brings us to now: junior year of college... the year my life turned absolutely and completely upside down.

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A/N: Hey guys idk if anyone will ever find this and read it but please let me know if anything in this book goes agains any CC boundaries. I'm not very well informed on foolish's boundaries so please let me know. Also this is the first thing i've ever published so I don't expect it to be good. I'm just trying to get my thoughts out in writing. Thanks lovies <3
hope you enjoy.