Tahani's Reality (Urban)

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•Tahani Lowars•
"Hani"

I relax against my bed rubbing my eyes I think of how sleepy I am. My phone vibrates and I stare down at the screen seeing its Naomi. I'll just call her back. I think to myself before falling asleep.

Just when I was feeling fast asleep I hear knocking at my door. I sigh standing up grumpily heading towards the front door. I unlock it coming face to face with a dark skinned man with brown eyes and a little on the thicker side. He was about 6'1 and is holding a clipboard and wearing a UPS outfit. "Uh...." He trails looking stunned. After a while he shakes his head snapping out of it. "Can you sign here?"

I watch as his eyes drop to my belly thats protruding in my sun dress. By now I'm about eight months pregnant so my stomach is very much obvious, rounded perfectly and sitting sort of low. I give him a polite smile taking the clipboard I try writing my name. My stomach somewhat hurting not a lot but noticeably.

"How many months are you?" He asks curiously.

"I'm eight almost nine though." I reply. Adding the finishing touches on my name before handing him back the clipboard.

I watch as his eyes continue to roam me respectfully but lustfully. "Sorry if this comes off too straight forward trust me I'm not one of those creeps or no shit like that it's just....you one of the most beautiful girls I've ever seen. Can I take you on a date-"

Before he can get it all the way out I topple over holding onto the doorway with one hand and my stomach with the other. "Oh god." I somewhat cry out my stomach aching really bad.

"Damn I'm sorry I know I shouldn't of asked." He apologizes quickly.

"No it's just...." I pause letting out another wince. "I think I'm having contractions."

"Contractions? Aren't you eight months? It's too soon. Where's the father?" He starts panicking fanning his shirt in and out and breathing heavily.

"Stop stop it," I repeat taking deep breaths. "P-please just drive me to the hospital."

I feel tears threatening to fall as he grabs my arm placing it over his shoulder. He closes the front door before helping me down the steps. Each step making my contractions ten times worse.

He helps me into the car meanwhile I hold my stomach letting out a groan passing him my phone that's already calling Naomi.

"Hello I don't know who this is but this woman is in labor right now I don't know what to do...." He shoots me a glance as he starts up the engine.

"Yes I think the baby is coming now."

• • • •

I bounce up and down on the bouncy ball taking deep breaths. I close my eyes listening to my annoying ass baby father's voice fill my ears. "You know you could've called me right." He mentions.

I snap my eyes open. "Oh I'm sorry....maybe I would've called you but you was too busy playin' house with that bitch," I snap. "Luckily JK the UPS driver was there or I would've had Pose on the kitchen floor."

"We been standing in this hospital room for a hour and he still ain't here quit being dramatic." He responds calmly.

"Can y'all shut up damn?" Naomi questions from the hospital chair where her and Issac sit calmly. "How the hell y'all expect to be parents and y'all arguing before the baby even here? Y'all need to grow the fuck up seriously."

"Honestly auntie I respect you but I ain't trynna hear that. Like for real. We both know where his ass would rather be." I reply back each word coming out harshly.

Taj sighs. "I'm trynna do the right thing and be here."

"The right thing?" I scoff. "I remember a time when it was the only thing you wanted to do. Now it's just the right thing." I mention.

"If you got something to say just say it." He mumbles.

I watch as Naomi and Issac stand to their feet. "We gone be in the cafeteria. If the doctor comes in with some news let us know and we'll be back down." Issac says.

Naomi gives me a hug and so does Issac before the both walk out of the room.

I continue to bounce up and down taking deep breaths. "You moved her into ya apartment." I bring up. "You left your pregnant girlfriend....broke up with her...and moved in with ya ex?"

"Tahani she don't got nobody else. Ight? Only option was to move her in. Besides I gotta son now with her, the DNA test came back positive. He's mine, and I won't just snatch my son away from his momma. So long as he has somewhere to stay so does she." Torin replies calmly.

I nod lowering my head. Maybe it's the hormones, or maybe it's just me. But I was hoping maybe Jesse had a little girl or something, I wanted to give Taj his first son at least. Now he has two sons, and the one he just met is his first.

I start to calm down as I rub my stomach. Maybe it's the hospital lights shining down on me, maybe it's the fear of having the baby, or the fear of being a mother in general. But I started looking at life in a whole new light. I realized in this moment there's not a damn thing I can do. Torin made his choice, he's going to raise his child, Jesse is going to be staying with him, and there's nothing I can do to change that. I am going to be a mother sooner than anybody including myself expected. I've been stressing, crying, and depressed more than I should be in my pregnancy. I admit everything Taj said was true, I was a confused ass kid who was living wild after I got hurt and a result of that was me hurting him. I'm not perfect and I never have been. I was lost after I thought he died and I gave myself up and got head from a nigga I shouldn't of and he damn near hated me behind that. Do you guys think you wouldn't be hurt if you were in my shoes? A girl who was just a fuck to him, who he claimed was just there to help him get over me was the FIRST to have his child, and at some point I thought she'd be the only. Even now our child has to share him with hers, this bitch who wanted us both dead will forever be apart of our life.

But today? I decide not to give a fuck anymore, my most important person in my life is Poseidon. He has to deal with her! Not me! And if he's here for our son that's fine, if he falls short that's okay too. Regardless I'll come through.

Couple of minutes later the doctor comes in to examine me. Suddenly I'm having an emergency c-section and everything is going through one ear and out the other. It's like I'm zoned out and scared, tears falling down my face as Taj holds my hands. Our frequent arguments disappearing from our minds as we prepare for our son to come into the world. I squeeze his hands tightly.

Preparing myself to step into a whole new life.

•Torin Truman•
"Taj"

I held my son in his hand watching as his eyes open slowly and momentarily. His grey eyes that look identical to mine staring up at me. I couldn't help but smile and feel my eyes water. I don't know if it's because he actually looks just like me, because I actually was around when he was growing inside Tahani's belly or if it's because he came from me and Tahani. But I felt a real connection to him already, knowing that no matter what I'd always protect both my sons with my life but it's just I felt more obligated to do that with Poseidon.

He's the same shade as Tahani, he has my grey eyes, her small button nose, my lips, her eyes lashes and just all around looked like me in the face. He closes his eyes, all bundled up in his hospital blanket right inside my arms. I glance over at a sleeping Tahani who just gave me a blessing. I would always cherish her for having our child, and though seeing her have the c-section was scary it was also beautiful seeing her give life.

And though she's not the first woman to have my child.

She's the first woman I am in love with to have my child. And I'll always love her for that.