Tahani's Reality (Urban)

|Co-Parenting|

•Tahani Lowars•
"Hani"

I kiss his forehead gently as he lays against my chest. It's been almost a week since I had Poseidon, to say that I'm loving every moment of parenting would be an understatement. He's one of the calmest babies I've ever seen, always sleeping, hardly ever crying. Only thing is he looks EXACTLY like Torin. I can see that man right in my baby, down to the eyes and down to his other facial features.

You grow a life inside of you just to have that baby come out looking just like it's daddy. Ain't that a shame? Nah but for real I don't mind that he looks like Taj, I'm happy he does. I love the both of them, even if me and Torin are going through a rocky moment I still care for him and I always will. He gave me one of the best things ever.

He gave me my son. Wouldn't be no Poseidon without Taj and I will always love and appreciate him for that.

I lift up off the couch slowly placing my hand over his head for support. I carry him away and towards the direction of his room. I gently lay him down in his crib making sure to place his baby blanket over him. I watch him making sure that he's breathing just fine. My new mommy nerves having me checking on him every second. I try to get sleep when I can but I be so worried about him I always end up hoping up to see if he's okay.

I run my fingertips gently across his full head of hair smiling to myself. It's so beautiful to think that I really created him. We really created him.

Suddenly my phone starts ringing and I quickly tip toe out the room so it won't wake him up. I glance down seeing its Taj I answer. "Can I come get my son for a couple of days?"

I sigh running a hand down my face. "Taj." I just say simply.

"What? You said that you wouldn't be on no weird shit. Don't be trynna keep me from my son Tahani."

I feel myself growing frustrated. I wanted to stick by my promise I made in the hospital but it's like he's not making it easy for me. "It's not even been a full week since he had his first breath on Earth and you want me to let him come with you? Over there? With the bitch who tried to kill you? Nah."

I didn't mean for it to come out as harsh but I did mean every word. If she would stoop as low as setting up a man she loves she be killed I feel like she would definitely do some shit to my baby out of jealousy or envy or whatever fucked up shit leads her to do what she does. Regardless I'm a new mother, my nerves already been bad already over simple things like making sure he doesn't lay the wrong way when sleeping and suffocate or something. Last thing I need is Poseidon going over there around them and me up all night wondering where my baby is at the moment, what their doing, what Jesse's doing, if Jesse is doing something to him. It's fucked up because I want Taj to be apart of our sons life as much as he can. But I'm not about to hand my baby to him to sleep in the same house as a crazy ass bitch neither. Anything could happen and I don't put a thing past her weird ass.

"I wouldn't let shit happen to him Tahani, com'on now I'm a grown ass man. I know how to protect my son. Just have his bag packed." He completely dismisses what I said.

"A grown ass man who didn't even know shit was about to happen to you Torin. See this ya problem you too fuckin' naive and think that people wouldn't do shit they'll actually do. And you willing to take that risk and about my baby life I'm not." I argue.

I hear him let out a frustrated sigh. "I'm trynna do the right thing here Ight? I'm trynna raise two sons who ain't even so much as a year apart, trynna make sure one of them and his momma have a roof to lay their head under. This shit stressing me, why can't you just trust me just this once Tahani?"

I laugh at that. "It's her I don't trust," I point out. "And it's not my fault you have two kids, not my fault that you moved her in with you, and frankly it's not my fault we broke up either. You broke up with me and decided to move that trick into your house. You got the money you could've just got them in an apartment or some shit. But noooo what did you do? You moved them in with you. And I know you did that shit to piss me off. You did it to hurt me and get back at me for lying to you Torin. I know you baby you can't lie to me. I see right through you. It's all fine though, cause now? I don't care. You claim you a man and you trynna be a good father so bad then you'll figure something out. Long as you got that girl staying there Poseidon ain't coming in that house."