Tahani's Reality (Urban)

|Mulo|

•Tahani Lowars•
"Hani"

It's been about a month since he's passed and it still feels like yesterday. I decided to take Tia & Tio up on their offer about going to the club. Running the company has been an adjustment and so has going home to a cold and empty bed that will never have Taj laying there again.

"Your aunt told us about your recovery. Don't worry Tio don't like liquor so he'll drink some pop with you." Tia says giving me a smile trying to be positive.

I'm tempted to roll my eyes. "I bet she did." I mumble staring at the set of twins.

They're both identical. Tia beautiful and dark skinned with long hair that she has placed in a bun and a fit slim body, Tio is also dark skinned with two neat braids to the back, tall frame and a fit strong skinny body.  I don't fully trust them yet because though they say that they knew Taj and that Taj put them in place to "protect" me if something happened and Joey agreed with them I'm still not putting my faith in them. Shit I can protect me! I don't need two mothafuckas I never met to do that for me.

"She's just lookin' out. Ya know she looks at you like a daughter. Only other person besides you that gets the nice Naomi is Issac." Tio laughs but he's serious.

I just nod. "Taj got the nice side." My voice is low and I'm basically talking to myself.

When the bottle girl comes around Tio stops her. "Aye can I have a-" he cuts himself off when he spots a pretty girl across the club. "Uh..." he gets stuck in a trance almost like he can't remember what he was about to say.

I peep the scene and Tia does too nudging her brother in the arm. "Gatio focus-"

"It's fine," I cut her off. "Go handle that." I order nodding towards the girl.

A smirk forms on his lips. "I'll be right back I promise." He lies jumping up quickly.

Minutes pass and the sever girl already walked off. "Ugh I can't stand his ass. He know we supposed to be doing this shit together." She mumbles causing a mug to form on my lips.

I don't consider Tia & Tio friends. I feel like they are around me because they work with me and because they made a promise to Torin. It's almost like they consider looking after me a job. And that's the thing I don't need anybody around me because they feel like they have to.

Luckily for me an opportunity pops up when I see her eyes trained on some guy who is in some females face. "I know damn well," she frowns. "That's my fuckin' baby daddy."

Whole time I didn't even know she had one. "Oh for real? All in that female face? Girl he trynna embarrass you. You better go handle that." I instigate. And she does just that standing up she stomps off in the direction she's in.

You know what hurts most about losing him?

Is that I'm constantly confused. Living life hurt and in question. I mean I had my own mom and dad abandon me when I was young. It's basically like I lost them. But truth be told they didn't care about me, hell they didn't even know me. But Taj did. He learned to know every single side of me. My shy and naive side, my wild crazy side, my memory lost side, my hating him side, my loving side, my accepting him side, my jealous side. Shit he loved it all. Even though I know putting up with me was hard he still put up with me. Till his last breath I believe in my heart he loved me.

But I can feel he's gone. When I close my eyes and think of him all I feel is cold. No warmth, no love, no sensations. Just numbness and emptiness. And that's something even running the company and all the money in the world can't bring back.