Izumi in the Other Side of her World

CHAPTER 4 - EMMA; DIZZY LIKE AN ALIEN

November 3rd. I look at my bucket list, and check that I will try visiting Meiji Shrine. A tour bus ride with a tour guide, because I don't know anything about Meiji Shrine. I just wander around and maybe apart from the tour group. I just feel too curious and a walk in a sunny, yet chilly day. I was really walking far around all over Meiji Shrine, but was told many rules from the Japanese guards. Still clueless in what they are trying to say. Trying to understand them, yet telling them my own understanding like a strange alien.

   I could understand that the guards are trying to say in broken English: "Tour... group... guide." I think I was rather scurried off back to my tour group after getting lost. I feel like every Japanese person here just felt so stranged out... and I was embarrassed.

  Same thing I feel went for the next day; November 4th. Fell dizzy again from looking at the map of Tokyo in what to put more in the bucket list. I later made up a decision to take the train to Shinagawa. Yet still not really knowing what to do. I thought I would shop, but I didn't as shopping places are everywhere in Japan... and I see no point. No talk as well.

   The same day, my decisions are becoming rushed, but I choose to try visiting Asakusa. But only knowing a bit about its iconic look in a huge city. Going in, it feels amazing, and I can't really follow through with another tour bus I took. Easily getting lost and not knowing what to do really. And especially thinking too much in what are the hefty amount of mannerisms to follow, so that I won't feel judged by others around me. And knowing that going... one way or another. But I think I'm being judged harshly anyways.

  November 5th, I run around my feet and draining my energy on wanting a better view of the Imperial Palace. I think I'm being worn out a bit from trying to move every good spot. My body felt worn out bit by bit. But the scenery of looking at it... felt worth it.

  The same day, I take the train to Harajuku because I wanted to think it's a paradise for me. Even there when I get inside and did my shopping myself, I suddenly felt so shy in just going in Takeshita street. I loved the edgy designs so much in wholehearted pink. That Takeshita street has itself feels like a rabbit hole. But the fashion on point from the people who also visits, makes me way too shy to get close to them, in a point where I am nothing much superior to here. I got what I wanted... tiredly, but not perfect; in a point where I'll entirely smile. I feel in no words, too much that I decide to climb out the hole.

   November 6th... I couldn't resist to stop my moving around, and going with my messy unorganized plan. Despite my voice starting to scruff, I still want to take my trip to Odaiba. I still feel, I could still live forever with my sense of Japan's discovery. Odaiba, I want to fly and smile all around. And I really put my hopes that I can make it here.

  I somewhat persuaded my tour guide to show me everything there is at Odaiba, despite me being... restless (pretty much tired inside.) Odaiba just feels so much that I could die for. And I was well dizzied in what there is to do at Odaiba. Feels like an open air and a view to the waters. It's just so good to push up my feelings in reminiscing the feeling of Odaiba. I actually didn't try everything there is at Odaiba as we left later at the afternoon. It says I could've paid for another tour for afternoon and night, and I was upset to hear that. I feel really sad so, and that went for the other tours I went to.

   Same day, Roppongi. I spent the late afternoon and evening killing my feet for something that just feels so worth going to. Roppongi hills malls, towers, museums, did a bit of my shopping, sight seeing high up, visiting so much of the art museums, I think I quite rushed much inside. Maybe it's not getting fun for me to go everywhere anymore I feel. But I couldn't bother to visit the spider statue, because it looks so real... and I hate spiders TBH. Going home, I put a plan to try going back here if I would like to go to a bar, or challenge myself to watch a movie in the Toho Cinemas... if a movie I'll watch is in sub or dub Japanese. Maybe tomorrow after Roppongi, I will take my visit to the Tokyo Skytree. Until the day after.