Things We Do For Love

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

Did you guys know? A doppelgänger is not the same as a Doppler ringer?

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Y/N'S P.O.V

Next morning as I woke up with Kakashi's jacket lying next to my pillow, it felt like he was truly there all night sheathing me from nightmares. Goosebumps covered my arms just thinking of having him physically present in my house. Was it even possible? Biting my lower lip, I touched the vest one more time before chuckling at my childlike behaviors. Touchan would be disappointed if he saw me keeping this as a souvenir- not with the greatest memory but certainly contained toe-curling retention. My heart swelled just imagining seeing him again with his disheveled hair and bored expression, fingers grasping the orange colored book while he talked about food; would he tell me how he hated me walking back home in the rain? I...I hoped he did.

Feeling chills run down my spine, I got up from bed and made my way around the house. It was still new to have my own place to look after but it was a step towards independence. How long was father going to look after me? Maybe if I could hold my own, he would let me join him on his research missions? I nodded at my own thoughts having no one else to tell me otherwise. I quietly freshened up, had breakfast that contained eggs, toast and a cup of tea. Sounds of pitter-patter rain hit my eardrums, it hadn't stopped raining ever since last night and the downpour looked wondrous from my open window wall. The light feathery touches of rain droplets eased my mind as I walked around with tea in my hand. The border mission was assigned at noon and it was early in the morning, the sun had been hiding behind the dark clouds, they looked like gray wools glued to the sky that occasionally moved with the wind. Gray- the color hiding deep within those mismatched eyes. I sighed in contempt, what was I supposed to do with this newfound feeling? I could tell Naruto but he was away. Touchan would definitely keep me away from Kakashi if he knew what I felt like and that left me with... no one. Absolutely no one.

Without much thought, I walked out of the house carrying an umbrella over my head to reach the gardens. The soil was moistened by rainwater and the remaining plants had slouched over one another from being neglected. Rummaging my fingers inside my back pockets, I brought out seeds that I collected over time. These weren't from the farmer's market but from my own fridge. I thought it would be easier to start planting fruit seeds from those that tasted the sweetest. Gardening was soothing, he said and yet, my hands dug holes on the ground that completely ruined the aesthetic views of the garden. Not to mention, the rainwater accumulated within the potholes was worsening the process of planting seeds. Maybe I shouldn't have started gardening while it rained but in my mind, it seemed perfect because I wouldn't have to water them afterwards. I felt stressed and constantly vexed because my garden looked like the playground of a child, my nails had dirt inside them- the opposite of what my captain had said I would encounter. Perhaps, it was best to learn the skill before diving in head first. Moreover, it wasn't the smartest decision to use refrigerated seeds.

Truth be told, I was bored in my own home. I had no one coming over and the rest of my 'friends' were Konoha shinobis. They couldn't come over any time they preferred. And I didn't think that I could have time to invite someone to my house after completing mission and coming home later from visiting Kakashi. Maybe that's why most shinobis that I encountered during my training session with Touchan looked distraught and irked. They barely had time for their own and constantly remained alert from being ambushed.