Star Wars One shots (Character x Reader)

Supressed - Padmae x Female Reader (Request)

Word Count: 1368!

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First female shot! I am sorry to everyone who prefers women to men. Thank you to this person (@Cand67890) who brought it back to my attention!

"Oh please. You can't tell me not once you've thought of leaving everything behind and running away?" I leaned back against the window, gazing down at the wonderful woman in front of me. She smiled and looked up at me through her thick eyelashes. Every detail about her fascinated me. The senator always had a calming presence to her and she never failed to get rid of my stress. Sadly, she would never know I thought these things of her. She'd never know I'd fallen for her, that I'd do anything to keep a happy smile on her face, or that i would drop everything to give her the life she wanted. "Of course I've thought about it, I just could never do it. The people of Naboo rely on me." She stood up and smoothed her dress out. I watched her every move with sultry eyes. "Your dedication to your people always gave me hope for mine. They hate me for trying to save them." I approached her slowly. My surroundings faded into only her. Nothing was more important than her in this very moment. "One day they'll see what you do for them." Padmae put her hand on my shoulder, making me shudder. Her touch was soft and gentle. She smiled and grabbed my hand. "I believe we are overdue a small break." Padmae chuckled and led me out of her office. We rushed down the halls weaving past droids and officials, stopping for no one. Our giggles filled a ship as we entered. The driver looked at us from the mirror, his eyes dark and peaceful. "Naboo's suite." Padmae giggled and answered the drivers look. He nodded and made his way into the traffic lane. I leaned back on the headrest and let out a breath. Padmae turned to me and put her hand back on my shoulder. I could never get enough of her touches, they temporarily filled a gap in my heart.

"Have a great night senators." The driver merged back into traffic and was gone in the blink of an eye. Padmae opened her doors and let the sunshine into her apartment. It was a calm and minimalistic place. The uncluttered furniture almost reflected her being perfectly. Nothing was out of place and blended to form a beautiful space. "You have a very beautiful apartment senator." I grinned and sat on her couch lightly. Padmae chuckled and poured the both of us a drink. She walked into the living room and sat down next to me, holding the crystal glass out to me. I took it and raised it in the air. "To the best senators the Galaxy has ever seen." I smiled and clinked my glass onto hers. She took a small sip and sighed. "I've always wished I never became Queen. It was fun, but it led to so many problems in my life. I never got to truly experience life outside of politics." Padmae started to talk to me in a True Tone.

I wasn't sure if she was a lightweight or trusted me enough to talk to me about her private feelings. Her eyes bright color turned monotone and she almost lost her colorful aura. I set both our drinks down and turned my full attention to her. "What makes you say that?" I put my hands on her shoulders and made her face me. "I enjoyed my time in the palace, but. But I just wish it never happened. I wish I could've stayed a small village girl. The only thing is I wouldn't have gotten to meet you or all my new friends." Padmae looked up at the ceiling to stop herself from crying. It broke my heart to see her cry. To see her in such a broken state that I couldn't fix. In a desperatere attempt to fix her, I pulled her closer to me. She wrapped her arms around my torso and hugged me. "You always know what to do." Padmae mumbled into my dress. I sat her up again and stared into her eyes. They were slightly bloodshot, but her color was returning and I get hood again. "We shouldn't spend out break regretting the past. Let's plan for the future instead." I stood up and held both her hands. She nodded slowly and got off the couch.

"Good maker. The amount of wedding proposals I've been sent!" I pretended to wipe sweat off my brow as I made a joke. Me and Padmae were wasted, trying to make ourselves forget everything. "None of them have sparked the slightest in me. I don't wanna marry for money or for something that would further me. I wanna marry for myself and for love." I sipped on the expensive champagne and crossed my legs. Padmae laughed and laid her head on the couch. We smiled at each other and gazed into one another's eyes. My vision set on the beautiful brownish green that laid in her eyes. Specs of gold could be seen if you stared long and hard enough. We both stopped laughing, and even breathing at some point. In a small, drunk attempt, I got closer. My body leaned towards hers and I waited. She copied my actions and took her gaze away from mine. Padmae made the move and removed the gap between us. Our lips touched for only a few seconds, but what amazing and perfect seconds they were. Padmae had a blush dusted across her cheeks when she pulled back. We both said nothing as we thought. I bit the tip of my finger and looked up at her. She met my gaze again and I made my move this time. I pulled her closer to me and kissed her, nothing steamy or erotic, just passionate and loving. "I love you Padmae Amidala. I love you and always have." I broke us up and waited for an answer. Padmae stopped moving and frowned. In a Split second she rushed out the door of her own apartment and into the halls. My heart split into two.
I wasn't sure if I had done the wrong thing.
Or if I'd just scared her.
Thousands of possibilities crossed my mind.
All that was true, was she had ran away.
Whether it was from me or from her feelings would be her business.

In a desperate attempt to save my last remaining bits of self respect I left as well. Only this time through the balcony. A taxi picked me up and drove me home. The whole way back, I thought. About her mostly. About her beauty and Grace. How she would scrunch her nose when she laughed at something funny. I also thought of all the good and bad memories we had. The nights spent awake during the hours of the night, trying to solve issues that were none of our concern. The times she would ask me to help her pick out a dress for a senate meeting, because I allegedly had immaculate taste. Without even knowing it, tears slid down my cheeks. Quickly I wiped them away and looked out the window. Coruscant looked beautiful at night. Bright waving lights to guide travelers. People wandering the streets, from this height they looked like little ants. Never would I think my life would come to this moment. My heart was broken by someone I thought could only do good. My opinions on her didn't change, I still thought highly of her, I just saw a side of her I never knew existed.

Senator Padmae Amidala left me for a Jedi. She told me herself and wanted to clear things between us. Padmae said she still loved me but was too scared to admit it at the time. When the empire rose to power, I heard about her untimely death and it broke me. I was in unimaginable emotional pain. My husband never understood why I cared so much, and he never would.

I loved him, but not like I loved her.

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I WANNA KNOW WHAT LOVE IS! I WANT YOU TO SHOW ME! I WANNA FEEL WHAT LOVE IS, I KNOW YOU CAN SHOW ME!!!
i am unironically the most lonely person i have ever met.