𝑂𝑛𝑒 𝑆𝑡𝑒𝑝 𝐹𝑜𝑟𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑 | C!RANBOO X C!TUBBO | ONESHOTS |

~ 𝐻 𝐸 𝐴 𝐿 𝐼 𝑁 𝐺 ~

RANBOO'S POV:

I woke up from the light shining in through the curtains and partly because Tubbo squirmed a lot in his sleep tonight for some reason..
Must've just been a restless sleep for him.

I turned over and put an arm around him, pulling him close to my chest and he yawned and groaned a little.
He's so cute when he's tired.

"..Five more minutesss.."
He groaned tiredly as he nuzzled his head into my chest.

I chuckled and held him close..
"We can stay in bed for a little bit longer.."
I said softly.

He let out a tiny hum in response before continuing to slowly fall back asleep in my arms.
I rubbed his back gently and kept him close to comfort my tired husband..

I felt his cute pointy horns poke at me in the slightest but I didn't mind.
His soft delicate ears drooped and twitched subtly every now and then.
He let off soft little snores that were only barely noticeable.

I sighed softly and laid there, holding him close, unable to fall back asleep.

Then suddenly he started squirming restlessly again..
I got a little worried so I gently woke him up.
I sat up and when he was awake he slowly sat up with me.
He look up at me with a sudden look of.... Fear?

"Tubbo... A-Are you oka—"
Before I could even finish what I was saying he began to shed a few tears..

I gently wiped his tears away with my thumbs and held his cheeks with a concerned expression,

"Hey, hey, hey... What's wrong..??"
I asked softly.

He sniffled and looked down at his lap.

"...I keep having nightmares. L-Like flashbacks... T-To when I was executed.. and
Wilbur blowing up L'manberg.. and E-Eret's betrayal.. and even the disc war.. Plus.. My childhood with Schlatt..."
He began to sob..

Once he began sobbing I quickly grasped onto him and held him close...

"R-Ranboo... I-I remember it all like it was y-yesterday... It h-hurts.."
He sobbed out..

A tear fell down my cheek as well at the thought of it all, and imagining how much it must affect my dearest husband daily...

"..Y-You and me both, Tubbo.."
I stammered out softly.

He sniffled and looked up at me,
"W-What do you mean by that..?"

I took a deep shaky breath, letting more tears fall silently..

"I-I still get flashbacks... To the grieving of George's house.. a-and.. Dream's manipulation with me.. L-Losing my memory book.. I remember Doomsday as well.... P-Pretty ironic how the few things I actually want to forget.. stay put in my mind."
I confessed, trying my hardest not to dwell on the memories too much..

Tubbo looked up at me with an expression full of devastation..

We both sat there and let it out while clinging to one another for comfort..

Eventually we both calmed down and got to a point where we both were simply holding one another, sniffling from time to time and trying to forget it all..
But I know that's impossible.
At this point, the memories can't be forgotten.

I sighed shakily and let my eyes flutter closed..
"..I know the past hurts... But the only thing we can do is look to the future. It's okay to be upset about it.. After all, we're still healing from these damaging times.. But we can't let it stop us from moving forward, Tubbs..."
I told him softly.

He looked up at me and put in a small weak smile as he rubbed his eyes and sniffled while nodding gently.

I smiled down at my loving husband and pulled him into another embrace..

"I'm with you till' the end, Tubbo..."

"..I know you are, Ranboo... Forever and always."