𝑂𝑛𝑒 𝑆𝑡𝑒𝑝 𝐹𝑜𝑟𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑 | C!RANBOO X C!TUBBO | ONESHOTS |

~ 𝐶 𝑜 𝑓 𝑓 𝑖 𝑛 ~

This is based off of a poem I made myself.
It reminded me a lot about their relationship dynamic so I thought I'd make a chapter to recognize it.

If you wanted to listen to a certain song while reading this, then I recommend "You Are The Coffin" by Flatsound.

BOLD =  Line from the poem

Normal =  The story

RANBOO'S POV:

It's something worth applause,

I stare at my husband as he rests peacefully in my arms.
It's currently midnight and I honestly can't sleep..

How when I look at you, the whole world comes to a pause.

All I can see in that moment is his oblivious and adorable expression as he sleeps.

Time is frozen, and all I see is you,

It's as if the whole world froze around him, and he's all I can focus on..

I didn't think it was something anyone could do.

He has no idea how much he truly means to me..
Yeah, I tell him that all the time, but he could never guess how much I really love him. He's the reason I'm still alive.

But somehow, someway...

And yet here we are. Here I am... Still here.

You made my troubles stray away.

He makes me feel calm. Like I have nothing to worry about at all..
He makes me feel safe. I don't ever have to let my anxiety get the best of me when I'm with him.

I was sure that happiness wasn't an option.

I never knew what joy really was until I found him. His smile brought me that feeling of euphoria that I thought was gone forever.

I thought I was destined to end up in a coffin.

I knew if he hadn't waltzed into my life, I'd be dead. I'd be a goner if it weren't for him.

You saved me.

He saved my life in all the ways anyone can be saved...
I don't know how I could ever repay him for that.

You were always the key.

Even when we were simply best friends.. He managed to bring me that happiness and joy that I didn't know I could feel.

You were the something I always needed but I just couldn't see.

I can't believe I was so blind back then. I was so stupid as to not realize it sooner.
It took so long to actually comprehend how much I really loved him.
And when he said yes to becoming more than a friend... I felt like I was finally complete.

I still hate myself.

Of course is still have my doubts about a lot of things. I still don't like being me..

I still think I'm not worth a thought.

And I still believe that I could never deserve someone so incredible like him.
Tubbo is the most amazing guy I've ever met.. And it astounds me that I somehow managed to get him to fall in love with me.

But somehow, you do not.

And yet... Tubbo loves me unconditionally. I don't know how, but he just does.

Somehow, you love me.

Somehow, after all this time, he's never left. He's always been there for me. And I can't thank him enough for that. Knowing that your loved is a feeling that beats all others by far.

You see me as the someone I've always wanted to be.

He has always supported me no matter what. Whenever I was going through something, he was always right there beside me to hold my hand and be with me till the very end.

I still wonder what I've done to deserve you.

I constantly ask myself what I've done to be gifted such an incredible partner.. And even though I still don't quite know the answer to that.. I'm still more grateful than ever.

If I had the chance I would go back and fall in love with you all over again..

I almost wish I could go back. I wish I could go back and relive the sweet memories I've had with him as my lover.

And maybe then...
I'll keep loving my life.

If only I could... Then I would never have to feel the pain when he leaves.

Maybe then I wouldn't pay any thought to my knife.