A sad reason behind happiness [exo luhan fanfic]

chapter 33 : apologise .

Narrator's POV :

Luhan and Min Ah have just got to the cemetery .
The atmosphere there wasn't familiar to Min Ah of course , it was scary and terrifying , seeing all those graves one next to the other made her feel uncomfortable and Unrelieved , and thinking that her father is inside one of them made the feeling worst .

Luhan noticed the fear in her eyes and her shaky hands , he wanted to help so what he did was to hold her hand .

The way he slid his hand between her ' s made her shiver , she was about to push him away but a part of her held her back , She felt safe and more comfortable between his hold .

They walked slowly toward her dad's grave and when they were already in front of it Min Ah let go of his hand .
Her feet were making small steps toward the grave , luhan stood there while she kneeled down on the ground, tears started falling without warning .
At that time she wanted to tell her dad everything , she wanted to ask for his forgiveness .

"Appa !........" she started to say after gathering some strength and wearing a light smile .

"Appa.......I miss you ! I really miss you.....

I hope you're okay up there , I'm sorry but I've just knew about......This !" She said wiping every falling tear and trying to hold back her sobs .

"I'm really sorry Appa , I should've been more careful and attentive to your acts , but I was so stupid that I didn't notice you suffering , I'm really stupid........... I know that you're angry now or you maybe want me to leave but I'm afraid I have to say no ! And disobey your order , I won't leave here because I came to apologise for every bad thing I did and mostly that night Appa , I shouted and did many bad things that I should've never done but I wasn't conscious , I was angry cause I didn't want to get married , I wanted to be a successful doctor like you , and heal people , help them through their hard times and bring back their happiness .
You weren't just a doctor , you are the best doctor I've ever seen and met and I'm really proud to be your daughter dad , and I hope you let me be again .
Appa ! I know that maybe you can't hear me or maybe you don't want to , but..........I'm sorry Appa I'm so sorry ! If you just comeback , I would do anything to win your forgiveness .

I wanted to learn from you , and be just like you , you promised me to teach me and stand next to me , you promised me that you'll make me be the best doctor in Korea but now that your gone , who would teach me , how am I going to get into that huge world alone , should I give up on my dream dad ?

I know you taught me to never give up on my dreams but......I'm not brave enough to do this alone , I need you dad ! And I can't do it by my own !

Since I'm married I think I should just stay at home and take care of my husband right ! " she said between her hard breaths and faked a smile a bitter one .

"I love you Appa , I love you so much ! And I want you to come back jebal !........jebal !
I promise I'll be a better daughter and do whatever you ask me to do !

Jebal......." she said and leaned her head down on the dirt and cried harder , she wanted this to be a nightmare , a horrible nightmare so that she could hang on that little hope that her dad is still alive and that she could wake up , but the sorrow and the pain she felt seemed to be so real to be just a nightmare .

Her tears fell like rain on the ground , they irrigated the gross , dried ground , her breathing went hard , whenever she remembered that she would never see her dad again .

She saw that scene in dramas , shows... people crying over someone important they lost or this kind of situations but she never thought that one time it would be her , she always thought they were over reacting but when she experienced it , she knew how hard it is to loose someone you love , and the worse is that he left simply taking with him a bad picture of hers , she was mean and rebel at that time but all she wanted is to show her dad that he made the wrong decision by marrying her but it ended up this way , he left without hearing her apologise .
at the end he's her father her beloved father and loosing him in such a way is hard indeed .

While she's crying and hitting the tomb lightly with her fist , luhan was still there , even if he stood a bit far he managed to hear everything she said , and it was all so emotional and sincere , he knew how much she loved her dad and how much she hated her marriage life , she had a dream but now that her dad is gone she gave up , he felt really sorry for her .
So without him noticing his legs guided him toward her , seeing her in that position made his heart soften .
He bend down next to her and gently wrapped his arms around her . Yes , he gave her a hug , a warm hug that she really needed but not from him she hates him but again she couldn't push him away , she enjoyed being in his embrace and feeling that warmth penetrates to her bones , so she stayed still and continued crying while he softly patted her back .

They stayed in that position for a long moment until Min Ah calmed a bit down , he pulled away and saw her puffy red eyes he put his thumb down on her cheeks then softly wiped her tears , she looked at him blankly , at that moment her heart bested fast but she seemed not to feel since her mind was busy thinking about something else .

"Let's go back now !" Luhan said kindly , he noticed the weakness she was suffering from so he help her up and guided her toward the car .

Meanwhile the ride , Min Ah was quiet , she was just staring outside while luhan kept on glancing at her to see if she's okay but suddenly his phone rang .

"Yeobosseo !" He answered , ot was his dad .

"Where the hell are you luhan ? How dare you leave the company so suddenly , huh ? " his dad scolded him .

"Dad I was just-" he was cut off by his dad's loud voice .

"You're not the CEO yet , and you started making excuses to leave ? It's your last time doing this , understood !" His dad said , even if it's just a phone call , luhan could see his father's mad face and it really terrified him .

"Sorry father !" Luhan said , and his father left out a sigh then hang up .

Luhan turned to see Min Ah and she's already sleeping , he sighed and looked back at the road .
She has been acting like a dead - alive person and he's really worried about her , she's not eating nor talking......

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Luhan didn't want to wake her up so he carried her out of the car bridal style .
On his way to the door Min Ah moved a little then mumbled but loud enough for him to hear
"Appa !" Then she hugged him and buried her face on his chest , she was sleeping so she mistook luhan as her father , she felt the same warmth and safety her father used to give her .
Luhan was surprised at first but then when he knew she mistook him as her father, he just let her .

Sorry for the short update ~
Poor luhan he's being so nice but is it the right thing to do ?
Haha I don't think so......

Hope you enjoyed it and thanks for reading ^^

Kamsahamnida !