A sad reason behind happiness [exo luhan fanfic]

chapter 22 : I really didn't know !

Jong dae's POV :

I have been rejected again by the same person but this time officially , I don't know why I fell for her , I couldn't control myself so I kissed her that night ,

if I wasn't drunk I would never have done that to her.

I just went to that wedding because ji hye insisted and Min Ah as well so I went there , but then when the priest asked them to kiss I couldn't handle seeing that so I stood up and went away trying not to make anyone notice , I found some drinks so I drunk as much as I could , shot after shot until I felt dizzy ! So I went to that big terrace where I could smell some fresh air , so stayed there for the whole time but when it was getting late I went inside and saw Min Ah walking alone so I followed her without her noticing and back hugged her .

I don't know , but does she likes him ? I mean I hugged her many times before and she always felt comfortable why isn't she like that now ! Why would she like him not me ?

Since the first day I saw her at school I felt like we're meant for each other but now I really don't think so !

I never knew how does it feel to be in love with someone , but the thing I knew is that it's a great and wonderful feeling , so I never thought that it can hurt you as much as it please you .

She was the one who made me hold on in life more and I felt once again that I had someone beside me , whatever happens.....

I think the only mistake I've done was not telling her about my feelings earlier , but at the same time I was never sure if she ever felt something for me .

At some point I really think she's all I have in this life , it's not that I don't have other freinds but her but I feel like I want to stay next to her , I want to protect her , I want to take care of her .....

But unfortunately , I'm not able to because she's taken and by hwo ! The guy I hate the most 'Xi luhan' I never thought that this whole thing would happen one day .

it's just crazy how things went!

I'm not sure now if she's ready to forgive me about what I did to her last night or maybe the one before but I admit that what I did Was wrong and I could've been more mature , I should've tried to forget her ever since she told me about her marriage , well I tried to , cause after that we didn't talk that much but I never managed to .

And I think that I made the biggest mistake of my life 'going to her wedding' , I knew I wouldn't handle seeing her with another guy but she insisted and I couldn't reject , and then I drunk too much and wad unconscious of my acts so I kissed her , and that was a big mistake also !

I haven't slept since then , I kept thinking about all I did and what is she feeling right now !

I don't blame her if she don't want to talk to me anymore , she probably would not .

*sigh*

Today I'm not going to work , because it's the weekend , and I really don't know what to do , when suddenly I received a text from.......'Min Ah' , and it says :

'Can we meet up today , I want to make things clear , please meet me at the park at 10 am .'-Min Ah

What am I supposed to tell her , how can I even talk to her ! What am I going to do ?

'sure' -I replied .

Min Ah ' s POV :

"Rrrrrriiiiiiinnnnnngggg ! " My phone's alarm clock rang ?

Well , it seems so ! I don't remember setting it ! Maybe it was by mistake .

I immediately shut it off and checked if luhan was still asleep and luckily he is .