You're the One - Part 1 || Greta Van Fleet

Chapter 130: Hers

Sam's P.O.V

"Have you.. ever had a girlfriend before?" Jess asked. My stomach dropped.
"Oh.." I said softly. "Um.. okay.. uh.. well, I guess.. technically.. officially.. no." She bit down on her lip, nodding.
"Okay." She said softly, looking down at her hands, now gently tracing their way up my arms. My heart started beating faster. Her fingers were always cold, but I liked it. They felt refreshing against my warm skin.

"Why?" I finally asked. She shrugged, avoiding my eyes.
"I don't know, I just.. I hear things and then.. I overthink and I just-" I sighed. I could only imagine what everyone was telling her after they found out about us. They all knew that I had never dated anyone before, and I'm sure the idea of that was freaking her out now.

"And you just want to talk about it, it's okay." I said, tilting her chin back up to face me. She nodded as she stared back into my eyes. My cheeks burned the longer she held her stare on me. It was so easy to get lost in her big brown eyes; I could stare into them for hours.

"Okay, so.. what do you want to talk about?" I said simply, gently tracing my fingers up her neck, tucking her hair behind her ear to get it out of her face. My eyes quickly moved down to her lips. All I wanted to do was kiss her.

Over and over and over again.

"Well, do you.. do you ever want to?" She asked. My smile grew. Of course I wanted to. I wanted nothing more than that, especially now.
"Mhm.." I managed, nodding. "It's just that.. I take that kind of thing.. seriously. I.. I don't just.. jump into just anything. I.. I want to make sure it's someone.. that I really want to be with."

She nodded, holding her stare on me.
"But.. you've hooked up with plenty of girls before.. right? You.. you never wanted to be with.. any of them?" She asked, avoiding my eyes. My stomach dropped. This was the last thing I wanted to talk about with her. But.. it was before her. I did a lot of things before her that I wasn't exactly proud of. But.. that had nothing to do with the fact that all I wanted was for her to be mine now.

"Oh.. well.." I said, laughing nervously. I knew if I said the wrong thing, I could ruin everything, and I knew how she overthought, and I never wanted her to think she was just another one of those girls. "Um.. I.. okay, I.. no, I.. I guess not." I sighed. That didn't sound positive at all.

"Oh.." She said softly. I could tell she was already upset by it. I bit down on my lip, feeling my heart beat faster.
"But.. but you've hooked up with guys before, right? So.. you.. you know-"
"No." She said, cutting me off, her cheeks burning red. My heart dropped. Now I'm sure her head was spinning. Just by the way she was picking at her nails, I could tell how uneasy she was.

"N-no?" I asked. She shook her head.
"Oh.." I said quietly. She peeked up at me. My heart was racing.
"So.. that's something that's.. important to you." I said, gently taking her hand, slowly intertwining her fingers in mine. I held them tighter, trying my best to warm them up.

I knew we were bound to have this conversation eventually, but I hadn't really anticipated it being so soon. I didn't want to think that far ahead with her, not when I had no idea how she was going to feel tomorrow. We were best friends, and.. I knew that taking that next step wasn't something I would take lightly. Because.. she wasn't just one of those girls. I had never wanted anything like what I wanted with her.. but I wasn't dumb. Even just how upset she got over Jake hanging out with Charlotte.. I knew she was still hurting over him. And that was okay, that was to be expected, and.. as her friend, I had no problem being there to help her work through it and heal but.. I had never experienced this with someone before.. I didn't even know how to be a boyfriend, but I wanted to be the best I could be.. for her.