If I Can't Have You | GOT7 [SEQUEL] ✔

Chapter Twenty

Later that night, Jackson heard the front door closed before Rose appeared before him. "Hey R--" her lips met his in a kiss as she straddled his hips on the bed. "You're needy today." He chuckled and she smirked. "I missed you." "I saw you earlier." She stared at him for a moment before tugging at his hair. "So?" Her husky voice sent shivers down his spine. For a moment, the duo stared down at each other.

"I love your eyes, your stare is addictive as strange as it sounds." She chuckled at his strange attraction. "Thank you." He replied as his eyes darken at the touch of her exposed flesh. Their lips reconnected as their intimacy increased.

Their clothes discarded from their bodies and covered the floor as they both rode into ecstasy. In a quick moment, the rough session turned quite passionate. Her hands that was once pinned above her head was traced by Jackson's until his fingertips intertwined with hers.

For the first time, the tempo changed as the intimacy grew with their eye contact. His thrusts became slower as his strokes went deeper. The hoarse grunts and moans came to a halt as the heavy breathing replaced it. "I love you." Jackson released the forbidden three words as he brought Rosette to her climax.

He brought himself to his own euphoria before rolling from above her. "Jackson..." She trailed off and he turned to her. "I meant it." She stared at him before just cuddling up to him. The feeling of guilt arose in her spirit as she dreaded this day.

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Rose cleaned her house as she spent the day away from the studio. She bit her lip as the comments Jackson made the other night dwelled with her. The conversation the day after also ran across her mind as she mopped her marble floor.

"Rosette" Jackson hugged the female from behind as she cooked breakfast for both of them. "Hey" she whispered as his head leaned into her neck. "I don't want to make you uncomfortable..." He started and she cut him off. "I'm not, I'm just shocked." She admitted as she lowered the heat beneath her pot. "I just..I don't want to hurt you Jackson"

Jackson bit his lip "after all this time, you still love him." He didn't quarry it, it was a statement. She swallowed and shrugged "it's hard.." her voice broke and his tensed stature loosen. She turned back to her pot to avoid burnt food.

"You know, I understand...but I'll admit I'm being selfish with my next statement. He doesn't deserve it Rose." She turned to him once more and they both stared at each other. "You been through alot, I witness alot, from Anthony to Jaebeom, why can't you let go? Do you love him that much?"

Unfortunately, his question remained unanswered as the days passed. She felt as if there was a devil on each shoulder taunting her mistakes and choices, which overwhelmed her. Her solice in cleaning became soiled which resulted her into changing something more public appropriate to take a stroll.

She sat at the beach and stared out into the ocean, she felt at peace. Her mind was clear, but her vision was blurry. She began reflecting her mistakes. She wondered if she had left Anthony before the affair, would things be different. She questioned jaebeom's feelings for her as her thoughts became creating so much scenarios. "Was it infatuation? Lust?" His choice in woman when we broke up spoke volumes to her, she shook her thoughts. "Of course he'll date his own race but Arianna?" Rose ribbed her skin as she suddenly became insecure.

Then there was Jackson. She bit her lip as guilt consumed her. She regretted involving herself with Jackson, she's hurting him and that was the last thing she wanted. "He deserves the world." She thought with a small smile.

The setting sun made her realize how long she sat at the beach shore. Her dried tears stared at the horizon as she conclude her decision. She stood up from her position and looked up at the stars which exposed themselves fully.