- Yyo -
We just got home from the airport. It has been a tiring roller coaster ride before we get here. My mind is still in unstable state I guess..
Yaya Weng took our lauggages with our other helpers and put them in our respective rooms here in our beach house home in Batangas. Mommy Maine and Daddy helped Ocean and Ulan settled in their rooms to rest.
I sat here in then living room unmoving for a moment before I shifted my eyes down my arms when my little girl move. Stretching her little arms. It is really true when they say, time fly so fast.
Have you ever been to a situation where you thought life is so beautiful and everything is just pure bliss. And then you will suddenly wake up one day that everything just fell apart and life is not giving you choices but to live with what's left behind?
" Naku.. Gising na ang baby namin na yan.."
Mommy said and carefully get the baby from me.
Rj: You can take your rest first, anak. Kami na muna ng Mommy mo ang bahala.
I nodded and stood up. Walk slowly to my room without saying a single word.
My room still look exactly what it is after Mommy have it renovated when Im 15. Yellow-Black scheme.
I lay down and curl in to a ball. This emptiness I feel in my heart wont go even after three months from that day. Even after going to meet a psychologist for the last two months before my parents decided its time to go home here.
My heart. I cant almost feel it. Its always empty and its spot in my check hurts. It hurt so bad specially kapag napapanaginipan ko yung araw na yon.
Hindi pa ko nagtatagal sa kwarto ng kumatok ang Mommy at Daddy. Karga karga padin ang anak ko.
I sit up and look out the huge glass window of my room over looking the calm sea. My parent had our beach house renovated so it will fit our family of five. Mine, Ocean and Rain's room are all somehow, nagawan nila ng paraan na overlooking sa dagat. Our humble home is far from a mansion but its huge. Just enough to my parents liking.
Mommy laid down the baby in the crib placed on the foot off my bed and the she sat beside me. And hel both my hands. She didnt say a word and when I look at her, she smiled with tears in her eyes.
Y: Mom.
M: Im sorry.. We failed you.
Y: Mommy naman. Hindi po. You're nothing but great parents.
She cried and hug me.
M: I thought we're going to loose you, anak. Hindi kakayanin ni Mommy.
Y: Mommy...
R: Wag mo na ulit gagawin yon anak.
Y: Im sorry, Dad.
It took time till me calm Mommy down.
M: Can you tell us what happened?
- Three months ago..-
I smiled looking at our daughter thru the glass windows of the NICU. She was born three days ago at barely 7 months. She's so small and there are lots of tubes and wires connected to her little body but the Doctors said that our little girl is doing just fine. Fighting complications like as pro.
