Maybe I just wanna be yours | Minsung

Hold your hair in deep devotion (I'll be)

Felix stayed up the remainder of the night, not wanting the broken Jisung to wake up to nothing.

The older had woken up at about 5am, the moon still resting high leaving the streets and Hyunjin's room in darkness.

Felix got into action immediately, ready to deal with whatever Jisung threw at him.

"Felix? where's Hyunjin?" He asked in a small voice, hazed with sleep.

"he's gone to stay with Wooyoung but didn't want you to be alone so sent me here" he wasn't exactly lying, but didn't want to tell the full truth as to how upset the older had been.

"is he okay?"

"yes, just... needed to be at college as early as he could in the morning" Felix came up with on the spot. He knew that if he told everything Hyunjin had told to him that the younger would deflate and feel bad about it for God knows how long, and he really didn't want him to be any more sad than he already was.

"do you want to go back to sleep? or stay up" Felix asked, deciding that if he wanted to stay up they could watch a movie to ease his mind as they had a while before they needed to get ready for school.

"want to stay up"

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When Minho woke up in the morning, he was instantly hit with the memories from the night before and weakly attempting to push Chan's body away from him.

"good morning, sunshine" Chan tutted. He kind of expected the older to go back to his usual self when he woke up, so was hardly surprised.

"I feel like such an idiot..." Minho groaned, voice still groggy with the fact that he had just woken up.

"you're not an idiot for feeling emotions, Minho. I'm glad you told me how you felt, I really hope you feel at least a bit better than before, huh?"

"I guess, but it's not like it fixed all my problems."

"of course it won't, but it's a start. Go get ready for school and show Jisung the best version of yourself, or at least try, or upset him again and risk actually losing him once and for all." Chan tried to knock some sense into him.

"okay..."

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Jisung spent his day close to Felix as much as he could, weary of the fact he might see Minho and break down again.

Even though he wanted to, Minho just couldn't approach him. He wanted to set things straight between them but there seemed to be an invisible barrier between them, and no matter how hard he pushed he couldn't get past it.

Everyone on both sides just watched the two from the sidelines, severely concerned but trying not to let it affect their own lives.

Hyunjin almost couldn't bear to come to college that day, but was forced by Wooyoung who knew better than to leave him flopping miserably in Felix's bed.

He saw Minho walking sadly down the corridor in front of him, and couldn't stop himself as he grabbed him by the collar and slammed him against a wall.

"you're such a fucking bitch" Hyunjin said almost too quiet to hear, tears threatening to spill down already. "you... you treat Jisung like shit and he still wants you, can't you fucking see? You're making me eat your dust, Minho, because I actually care about him"

The younger of the two let himself wail, dropping his head down in front of Minho's chest, the older uncomfortably backed up against the wall with Hyunjin's hands still in fists on his shirt.

"what are you talking about, Hyunjin..." Minho sighed, he didn't feel like dealing with this at the moment.

The taller boy just shook for the thousandth time in the last 24 hours, loosening his grip. It wasn't even Minho's fault that Jisung liked him over Hyunjin, but he just couldn't be mad at Jisung, sweet little Jisung.

"He has my whole heart Minho... and it feels like you're stomping all over it for a laugh" Hyunjin cried.

If there was one thing that made Minho feel upset, other than Jisung, was seeing Hyunjin cry. Not a lot else seemed to have an effect on him, but something about seeing the soft boy so destraught made him feel something. It didn't bother him a lot, but his heart did soften a little, it was like his body knew that he couldn't be harsh on a person so fragile, but this time seemed to be different.

"What if I am? your whole life has been filled with sunshines and rainbows. Now is the time to wake the fuck up and see that you can't get everything you want, Hyunjin." This certainly caught Hyunjin off guard. He knew how much of a dick Minho could be, but he had never shown it so much to Hyunjin before, who had only witnessed him doing it to others.

"Min.."

"shut up with the pet names, I'm done pitying you, grow the fuck up" Minho spat, instantly hit with so much regret even though it was too late.

He watched as Hyunjin's shiny eyes welled up again, and only just managed to grab him in time before he could run off.

"wait, shit. you know i didn't mean that-"

"do I though? you do it to people all the damn time, how was I dumb enough to believe you gave a smithereen of a fuck about me? Maybe you're right, you should stop pitying my pathetic ass and pretending to care about me as it must waste your precious time" Hyunjin inhaled sharply, blinking away his tears before ripping his arm out of Minho's grasp.

"Hyunjin-"

"leave me alone!" Hyunjin turned around from where he was walking off, allowing Minho to catch up with him and grabbing him once again.

And for the first time ever Minho wrapped him up in his embrace, at a loss of what to say to stop the younger from leaving his life like everybody else had.

Hyunjin didn't move, but was deep down slightly warmed by the fact that his best friend was able to push his guard aside to at least hug him for once.

Minho was never the skin-ship type of person, he hated being touched unless it was his dick (of course), so this made Hyunjin wonder whether he really did care.

"you can never hate me more than I hate myself.. for that. If I lost you that'd be one of my biggest regrets in life Jinnie" Minho spoke, unsure of his words but really meaning them.

Hyunjin let tears of happiness slip, for the first time Minho calling him his old nickname from kindergarten that he had stopped using when they drifted apart.

"Min, I love you"

I'll always be your best friend.

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A/N: wHy do I keep making it sad bye this is my emo era 🖤💔☹️ #brocken