Maybe I just wanna be yours | Minsung

Maybe I Just Wanna Be Yours

"Minho, I really don't understand you and I wish I could. What's the reason you act so cold? I want to know more about you, but I don't even know if you like me. You walk out of that janitor's closet like I meant nothing to you, but here we are because you wanted to teach me how to skateboard then you kiss me? It makes no sense, you're sending me so many mixed signals and I get so worked up over them.
It's hard, hard being in love with a person that the next day after comforting you they run off. If I did something why aren't you telling me?" Jisung covered his mouth immediately, realising he'd just accidently confessed but it seemed to go unnoticed by Minho.

"Jisung. I- I don't-" Minho started, letting out a shaky sigh. He couldn't hold back his little tears from trickling down,  he could see the shock on Jisung's face. "I don't think I'm- I'm worthy of anyone's time, or love. To my parents I've always been a waste of space and I- I guess that just carried on with me. I like spending time with you, but I spent so much of my time building up walls around me in order to protect myself. I don't want to be around others very much because I don't want to be a waste of their space, so maybe if I am rude to them they'll go away and then I won't be, you know? When I started to... enjoy.. being around you too much, I drove you away so I wouldn't get too attached and be upset once you eventually wanted nothing to do with me. I thought I was doing this as it seemed better for everyone, but I guess I was wrong. I don't want to see you walk out of my life, and I don't want to keep pushing you away. With Italy, I didn't want to go at all but my mother forced me, I didn't want to leave everyone behind but I also knew they wouldn't miss me."

By now Minho was full on sobbing, the elders tears making Jisung begin to cry, too.

"I wish you had just told me" Jisung cried, wiping his eyes.

"don't cry" Minho held Jisung's face with his cold hands, thumbing at the tears that fell.
The younger grabbed Minho's wrists but didn't move his hands away, just letting him as he stared into his eyes.

"I don't think I deserve you, Jisung. All you've been is nice to me and I took it all for granted, I'm such a dumbass" Minho choked, his face uncomfortably wet with his tears.

"but I love you" he confessed, crying a little harder.

It was as if his confession actually made him realise now, realise how much he cared about and loved Jisung. There was no denying it now, it was out in the open and it felt like a huge relief, but it also scared him and made him feel so vunerable in the moment.

"what?" Jisung sobbed, unsure if what he heard was real or not.

"I love you" Minho smiled through his tears, a big genuine smile that made Jisung completely melt and go weak in the knees.

"one more time" He gripped Minho's wrists tighter, feeling giddy but still crying out of control.

"I love you-" and he cut him off with his lips.

Their tears fell on to each others cheeks with how close they were, smiling and giggling through their tears with so many emotions as they kissed.

It was hardly romantic, snot running down their faces, tears everywhere and the uncanny amounts of saliva, but they didn't care in the moment. All that mattered to them was each other, and that's all they had.

it was so easy,
to be the reason someone smiled.

and so so easy to love someone when

they loved you back just as much,
and you meant the world to them.

-END-

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A/N: stfu it's finished omg c r y i n g
but don't worry, like I said there will be a sequel.
It's called 'fluorescent adolescent', I've put it on my profile for you to add to your library for when it comes out :)