Out of the Loop

Jealousy

April 24th 2018

Jungkook entered the practice room behind his hyungs. He had on his usual black attire: black t-shirt, black sweats and black sneakers. He even had a black backpack on him, completing his look. He looked like he just walked out of a Hot Topic.

Clothes that weren't colorful or childish helped Jungkook keep from slipping at dance practices and times when they were in public. His hyungs called him edgy and grown up for always wearing black, and those words helped ground him.

The same couldn't be said for his Jimin-hyung. The older had chosen some comfy (and cute) sweats in an array of pastel colors.

It was clear to them all that the dancer had slipped while choosing his outfit for today. His boyfriends kept doting over him, sneaking in compliments and sweet but hidden kisses on Jimin's cheeks.

Jungkook stayed off to the side, pretending that he had something to do so that his hyungs wouldn't think it was odd of him to not be swooning over the little as well.

It left the maknae with a bitter taste in his mouth, but it wasn't like feeling jealous was anything new to him. Watching his hyungs interactions made Jungkook feel like slipping, but he knew once he slipped it would be hard to get out of littlespace.

Unlike his hyungs, Jungkook slipped easier and way more often, usually a few times throughout the day. He envied his hyungs for being great at controlling their littlespace, because no matter how much Jungkook tried, Kookie would come out eventually. Maybe it was due to the fact he had so much pressure from being the golden maknae, or that he lost a lot of his childhood to his idol training that made him want to slip so badly all the time.

"Minnie, you need to be big now. The dance instructor will be here any minute, and we don't want him seeing you when you're little. Can you please be big now, baby?" Seokjin asked softly to the little.

Minnie pouted, not wanting to be big. The looks of his caregivers, however, made him realize that he could be big when they got back home. "M' big now hyung. But I want cuddles later." Jimin demanded, and all the caregivers in the room chuckled. Well, except for Kookie, who had slipped seeing the interaction between Appa and Minnie.

Guess the clothes didn't do much to stop Kookie, huh.

Right as the laughter subsided, the instructor entered the room. "Good morning guys!" He greeted happily. The members bowed, and Kookie did as well out of respect for his hyung.

"Right, let's begin, shall we?"

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"Good work guys, let's take a 20 minute break. I'll be right back," the instructor said, turning off the music and exiting the practice room. Once he was gone, the members relaxed. They were all exhausted after running through the choreography for IDOL and Anpanman, as well as choreography for their older songs Fire, Run, and DNA.

Kookie was exhausted as well, but he was also proud of himself. He had done a great job dancing so far—receiving praise from the instructor and his Hobi-hyung. Since he had been little often in the dance room, Kookie had learned the choreography for himself! Kookie happily made his way to his black backpack that sat against one of the dance room walls.

That backpack was special to him, and Kookie brought it wherever he went. Jungkook always said to—in case he slipped when he wasn't in his room. Inside the backpack were three very important items: his Cooky stuffie, his list of rules, and his writing journal.

Kookie had always loved his Cooky stuffie, especially because he had designed it himself. Jungkook had slipped while coming up with the concept art for his very own BT21 character, and everyone seemed happy with what he came up with. The stuffie was a comfort item for him, and it was his only stuffie—unlike his hyungs who had more stuffies than they all knew what to do with.