Friends Ashtray x reader

Goodnight?

The night of the party Rue had been distant, ever since the thing with Jules I can't forgive her. But the night of the party, I didn't see Rue till the end. I need to talk to her, but I should focus on what's happening.

"(y/n) I ain't need you telling anyone about this" Fez says looking at me

I turn to Ashtray looking at me nodding, "yea for sure" I say

"I shouldn't even be asking I know you wouldn't," he says looking at me in the mirror

I just nod thinking about ashtray, how could a person be so. Well so perfect?

I look over at him giving me a slight smile, I know me and him aren't dating and he was sort of my first kiss. But he is so perfect his freckles and his eyes and his eyebrow slit, I could go on for days.

Instead, I will just rest my head against the window, and fall asleep.

I wake up to the sound of my door opening, Ashtray?

"Hey," he says to me

"Hello, ash," I say to him smiling a little

"Let's go inside, yea," he said while I stood up looking at my phone

I had over 50+ texts from Maddy, I told Ashtray I would be inside in a second.

Hey
Answer
(Y/n)?
Hey
Answer
That's it
I'm so fucking pissed
Please listen
I'm trying to be
Sincere
Bitch
You fucking asshole
I'm telling mom about ash
Your hanging with a drug dealer
Can u answer
I actually hate you
Bitch

There was more but, I don't wanna answer her cause I know she'll be pissed. So I called her! I'm so fucking dumb

"Hey," I say over the phone

"Can you come home?" She asks me while tearing up a little

"I'm with Ash right now," I say

"The one time I fucking need company you can't come home?" She says crying

"I'm sorry my head hurts so bad and I just need to sleep," I say over the phone

"(Y/n) you piss me off" she ended the call

I feel myself crying a little as I dial the number of Lexi.

"Hey," I say to her

"Hi what's up," she says

"Lexi I really need to talk," I say to her over the phone

"Okay," she says

"I just need help," I say crying

"What why?" She says over the phone

"Cause, I just don't feel... enough? I feel like shit right now and it's pissing me off" I say more mad now

"(Y/n) are you okay?" She says to me as I start hyperventilating

"No" I stop