Among the Mirabilis(Part one of the trilogy)

Chapter 23

"The point of my existence is clearly to entertain people. Why would I kick you? Because you've noticed that I'm in my knickers? I didn't think you'd noticed things like that. You being here doesn't mean much to me. It's almost as same as if you're not here at all so there's not much to worry about."

I blabbed, still flat out drunk.

- "I could still be either confused or stupid."

"Why do you think that?"

- "Well, it's quite simple to conclude miss uncategorized. It's not like you don't understand.."

Ugh. I got a new nickname. Great! Now I just need Sammy to hear it and to analyze the reasons as to why this angel before me is calling me that.

- "We discussed regarding on the subject of panties – you just commented how me being here is almost the same as if I am not here at all. So, what do you say I give you the company of someone else?"

Mental breakdown incoming! – That's my current state right now.

I've had enough of psychology!

I put on my sour smile and replied:

"You're right. Call Max. It'd be a little bit dumb if I were to call him to join me. If you do it, it'll look absolutely spontaneous!"

He smiled, cheered with the idea. He pulled out his phone and dialed Max.

Ugh! Me and my tongue! What will I do with Max now?!

- "He's not answering."

I'm looking at him, not believing what I see. Nothing that happened in that beach guard house left any trace on him. As if I imagined it in my head.

What kind of guy is he?

- "I don't know why. Perhaps he's sleeping.

Pity that he didn't get to see you like this. Standing in the water, in the moonlight."

"Why do you say that? I might start to assume that you think I'm pretty."

- "Yes, you could assume that."

"I could, couldn't I?"

- "I don't have the problem with that, trust me."

This guy will drive me nuts. I officially declare that I don't want to be pretty anymore, for as long as I live!

I looked at his profile as he stood sideways from me.

I clawed my nails into my fists to restrain myself from pouncing at this charismatic creature that speaks nonsense. He is either unaware of it or he's skillfully hiding it, but either way I'd gladly pounce on him right now and use all of my sexual experiences on him.

"What happened at the beach guard's place.."

I started. He turned to face me and he looked into my eyes as if he was inspecting something deep in them. Then he looked at my lips and I don't know why – but I stopped breathing at that moment. I was looking at his mouth too.

I'd pay right now to kiss those lips again.

I don't know from what kind of disease I'm suffering, but it seems like it only requires a single kiss to get seriously ill.

Kiss me! – I said to myself. – Kiss me, you seductive bastard!

I don't know when he approached me, I only know that I inhaled his scent. Millimeters are taking me from something which hits my brain with dopamine-serotonine-WHATEVER!

- "Lucia... Listen..."

Looking at him lost, I barely spoke.

"I'm listening."

- "Lucia... Listen..."

Looking at him lost, I barely spoke.

"I'm listening."

- "Everything that happens between me and some other girl is only temporary. I don't want to belong to someone but at the same time, I don't want that someone to belong to me. Things that happen are just moments to me. They don't hold any weight tome.

I don't talk about it.

I don't think about it.

I simply, completely and fully forget about it. It's not my choice – I just don't hold any emotions.

But if we are to discuss what happened at the beach guards little hut -It doesn't represent anything.

So, to me it never happened. Can you live with that?"

"Don't flatter yourself kid!"

- "I just don't want you to get the wrong idea like every other  woman– that it's them that are the problem. It's not. I feel no connection. I can't feel it. I don't feel anything.

I don't expect you to understand because it's not normal. I wouldn't understand it either if I were you. The only one I feel something towards and the only one which sparks something in me is very precious to me. I promised her that I wouldn't be single because she lives in Korea, while I am here."