The Girl Next Door (RDJ FANFIC)

OMG!! It is you!

Lexie's POV

Two months since I threw my whole life away. He must hate me. My kids will hate me. My family.

I caught a flight that day he left I closed my eyes and picked a place and got a ticket and left and it brought me here. London, England. The weather was miserable just like I felt. I had taken money out of the bank before I left. So he couldn't track my accounts.

I stayed in a small hotel there was a young woman who helped me, I told her my name was Anna. I didn't tell her much about my life except I'd just had a baby and I couldn't cope no more. She got me help. I've been seeing a therapist for a while now and now I'm finally feeling a little like the old me I'm terrified of going back. I'm terrified that he will hate me. My kids won't know me. They all will hate me.

"Anna?"

"Hey Jess"

"Have you called your husband?"

"No."

"You know he's going to be so worried"

"He probably hates me"

"Anna no he wouldn't hate you. I bet he misses you so much"

"I'm scared Jessica"

"Of course, I can be there by your side when you call"

"Thank you. When I'm ready ok?"

"Of course"

She has been great, I don't know where I would have been if she hadn't have helped me. I have post natal depression, I'm struggling to love anyone or anything because I feel so low about myself. I struggled after Lucas was born. My life had always been chaotic and then it was finally quiet. The only noise was the children and Rob and I couldn't cope. I pulled away from him to spare him from me.

I stare at myself in the long mirror of the therapists room, my once long blonde hair was now shoulder length and brown.

"Mrs Blake would you like to come in?"

"Yeah I'm ready"

I changed my surname back to the original so that people wouldn't know who I was. I was ashamed to be his wife it was the opposite I didn't want him to be ashamed of me.

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"Do you think your ready to reach out to your husband Anna?"

"I want too, I miss his voice. I just miss everything about him. His smell. I miss our baby and my little girl but I hold the phone in my hand and I dial his number and then I freeze and cry and I can't do it"

"I think you need to focus on one person. At this moment you need to not think of the children you just need to think of your husband. Picture his voice. Think of what he would usually say to you when your sad"

My eyes closed and Robbie is in my head

"What's he saying to you Anna?"

"He loves me. He worships me. He needs me"

"And what do you want to say to him right now?"

"I'm so sorry baby, I'm sorry I left you after promising I never would again. I love you so much and I need you. I can't breathe without you"

"So what should be your next step now Anna?"

"Call him"

"Do you think you can do that?"

"I'm going to try"

"Okay well I hope in our next meeting things will have improved for you"

We shake hands and then I left.

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Sitting in the hotel room, I pick up the phone and dial Roberts number

It rings and rings

"Hello?"

I hang up the phone.! His beautiful voice sounded so broken. Just one word was enough to end me..

I tried again. Same result.
Again
Again
And again...

Come on Lexie you can do this

I dialled his number once more

Robert: Lexie is this you?

He knows! I can't speak. My brain won't let me.

Robert: baby if this is you. Just listen. I love you so much and I miss you like crazy. I can't cope without you baby and I need you so badly. I'm falling apart without you. Please baby please come home to me.

Tears fall from my eyes, my brain still not letting me speak

Robert: I need you Lexie. I need you. I love you. I love you so much.

I hang up the phone. And just start sobbing.
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A few hours later I decide to change into some running clothes and go down to the water front to clear my head. After an hour of running I see a small coffee stand and grab my coffee and sit on the bench and stare at the water.

"Omg!! It is you." I turn to see three girls staring at me with massive smiles on their faces

"I'm sorry I think you've got me confused with someone else"

"No your Lexie Downey!! Your Robert Downey Jr's wife! Can we have a photo with you please??"

"I'm not her"

"Yes you are! Please can we have a photo"

I stand up and start to walk away from the girls

"Please just one photo"

"My name is Anna"

"No your not why are you lying?"

I start to walk faster to get away from these girls but they're chasing after me. Taking photos. I see a taxi and jump in it..

"Please just drive"

"Yes ma'am"

He pulls away and the girls continue to take pictures. Shit! If they post those photos then everyone's going to find me.