Reckless

18. Schoolgirl

Draken and I arrived back home, the whole ride was completely silent. Inside I headed straight for my room. "Hey Ki, can we talk please." Draken said grabbing one of my wrists before I could walk off. I winced at his touch not because it hurt but because it scared me. Draken immediately let go but looked down and saw the faint bruises. "What the hell happened to you?" He asked full of concern. I looked down the hall and saw one of the cleaners walking towards us. "This is not a hallway conversation." I spoke. We went into Drakens room, and he locked the door behind him. "Look Ki, I just want to make sure you're okay. You've been hiding bruises with makeup that look very serious on top of not coming home for three days. It looks like you were kidnapped. Who did this to you? Your new friends?" I squinted my eyes and pursed my lips looking at him with uncertainty. "Well," I paused putting my fingertips together, "How do I explain this. Actually, you should probably sit down for this one." Draken looked worried as he sat down on the edge of the bed.

"So, the thing is, is that I consented to this." I held my hands up and pointed to my neck. "Kiyoko, what does that even mean?" I thought for a moment, trying to think of the best way to explain this to him. "You see while my new friend and I- He tied me up and choked me." I looked at him through my squinted eyes to see if was understanding what I was getting at. I didn't want to have to go into extreme detail. "Who the hell is this guy? Kiyoko, I am going to kill whoever it is for hurting you like this. Why didn't you reach out for help? That's abuse." Draken stood up, getting angry. I started laughing and he did not seem amused. "I wasn't abused Draken. You don't need to kill anyone. We talked about it before things happened. I had a safe word. He made sure I was okay in the end. But let me tell you it was great." Draken sat back down and put his head in his hands. "So, let me get this straight, you got tied up and choked while this mystery guy fucked you." I shook my head yes. "That seems extremely dangerous. Didn't it hurt?" He was looking at me with genuine concern. "I mean if it's done wrong, it can be, but I trusted him, and he seemed to know exactly what he was doing. It didn't hurt until the next day. I was very sore but it was worth it so I can't complain." 

I made sure to leave the details of me crying, having a panic attack, and forgetting the safe word out because I didn't need Draken to worry about me even more. He already seemed distressed enough and I was not prepared for this conversation with him. "I'm not trying to put down what you like but I just don't get why, and I really hope you don't expect me to do this to you now." He looked scared of this. "I mean if you wanted to try it, I could show you how it's done." I smirked at him. "Kiyoko. No. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I hurt you." I rolled my eyes at him. "That's like the whole point though." Draken just looked disturbed now. The room was silent as I let Draken process everything I told him. Eventually he gave up trying to understand the situation and I went back to my room.

School had started back up and it was absolute torture. Instead of paying attention during classes I daydreamed and once the school day ended, I bugged all my friends to hang out, but they were all being responsible and doing homework. All I could think about was Ran, my upcoming tattoo appointment and the unfortunate conversation I had with Mikey. Since I ended up alone with my thoughts, I was able to finally decide what I was going to do. I am curious about what Ran and Rindou do. They are very careful about what they say. I will try to get something out of them, but it doesn't mean I have to relay what I know to Mikey. This gives me an opportunity to get the brothers to open up to me and also possibly help my friends out. 

Friday afternoon at lunch I decided to text Ran. Emma and Hina were curious if we'd been in contact. I had been so preoccupied that I didn't realize how much time had gone by since we parted ways. 

Hey, it's Kiyoko. Idk if Rin told you about my appt. with Aki tomorrow but that means I'll be in the area if you aren't busy

Ran answered immediately like he had been waiting for this message.