TheDarknessInsideYou's Diary

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~ I am a very possessive person. Not just with material things, but with people. Back of my bff bitch!

~ I am 5'4, and am shorter then all my friends. Ugh!!

~ I have curly brown hair that used to reach down to the bottom of my back. But i got it cut, so now half is shaved and the other half only reaches down to my chin.

~ I have eyes that are like chocolate brown but also light brown. But not hazel.

~ I am a extremely sensative person, and if you insult me i will insult you back, but will feel like what you said is true. So please, dont.

~ I am a sassy motherfucker. My friend told me so when i told this guy that "His ego is bigger then his dick". My other friend had to leave the room because she was laughing too hard. Afterwards he left me alone! :)

~ I used to be a extremely quiet, sensative person. I had no friends until the third grade, because i used to be an absolute asshole to other kids. My mom thinks i was crazy, because I'd beat other kids with lunchboxes and would cuss out the teacher and their moms. She thought i was Satan's spawn. But after first grade i kinda became really shy and quiet, and it was extremely hard to make friends. It still is. My first friend was a girl named Chassity Waterman, and i would call her watermelon all the time. We're still friends, and I'm actually closer to her then all my other five friends. But she had a different class then me in fourth grade, so i went back to the first friend i ever made; a tree in the playground.

~ My dad has never really been in my life. The only time i see him is if he wants to get back with my mom or whenever he wants to lower child support.

~ My mom got engaged to a man named Jason when i was two, i think. He had been arround until i was five, turning six. Then he and my mom had a fight over him not paying for his own child's support, and he left, taking mom's engagement ring and my necklace. He never said goodbye and that was when i turned into a very angry, sensative child. I feel bad because i took out my anger towards Jason on my mom and now our relationship's a little rocky.

~ I was supposed to have a brother or sister. There. I said it. Don't talk to me about it.

~ I always wanted a sibling but mom laughs and says that when i move out she might, might consider it.

~ I don't know if it's because my sign is Cancer, but i act exactly like one. I can be very ambitious, and i'm going for a Academic Honors degree in HS, but also really tied down because of my emotions. They got so out of control i became depressed. I still am, but i take mood stabilizers so whenever i get mad or frustrated it sorta stabilizes it. I always feel like I'm being held back though.

~ I'm in a constant state of nostalgia. I always feel like someone's watching me, and because of that I'm careful what i do or wear when im alone because i don't feel i am. I am also in a constant state of anxiety. I act happy and excited but that's when i am having a panic attack, which is the majority of my day. Whenever i become moody and closed off that's when my anxiety went away. It's weird.

~ I think that if a book has eyes or a person's face on it, then it can see me. So whenever i change in front of a manga or a book like that i either cover it with a blanket or turn it over because it feels like im changing in front of someone.

~ I sing to myself. I've been told my voice is soft and pretty, and my two other friends Dani and Malik and i often do Capella together. I'm alto, Malik is bass and Dani is soprano. We sound pretty good when we sing together.

~ I can't sing in front of people without someone else with me. I tried once in Chior and had to leave the room because i thought they were glaring at me and practically telling me to fuck up. It feels horrible, but a week after that me and Dani sang This Is Gospel in front of everyone! We sounded amazing!

~ I get stuck in my imagination. 25% of the time im listening, 75% of the time I'm imagining something. It's not to the point where i can't tell imagination from reality, but it is to the point that i wish it was real and that i miss most of my life to imagination. It's better then my life most of the time though, so yeah.

~ I love cooking. I don't know how to cook stuff like chicken slices, but i can make Hamburger Helper, tacos, beef stew, chicken wings, whole chicken, and other stuff. I think I'm pretty good, and my mom likes it when i cook. I can kinda guess what ingredients something needs from the way it would taste with it and without it. It's like a automatic thing.

~ I love reading. Duh.

~ And i love hanging out with my friends.

~ My birthday is in two months but i consider myself 15 now.

There you go! That's all i can really think of. Thanks for reading!