Love Me

Kabanata 2

The cab i took were a bit faster than i thought. Nasa harap na ako ng bahay. A clubhouse unit, with a good amenities.

Tahimik akong pumasok. Di na ako nagulat ng mapansin ko ang anino sa gilid ng couch. Natatanglawan ito ng dim lights mula sa cove lights.

"Tulog na ang mga kuya mo. I really waited for you. Let's talk, Klishere Fetili." may diing saad nito habang seryosong nakatitig sa akin.

She's wearing her night robe. Kaya alam kong kanina pa siya naghihintay. God! Mom's been waiting here for hours? Isn't she tired? Because i'm too tired! And i want to forget what happened in that damn hotel!

Lumapit ako ng konti rito, at maingat na naupo sa left side ng couch. I saw her shake her head for a nth times now.

"So.. why didn't you came, when i told you to have dinner with us? Is it really.. too much to ask, huh? What's happening to you? All these.. again, because of that boy, right?" mas matigas at galit nitong dagdag.

I sighed then face her properly. She narrowed her eyes at me. My mom were almost on her midforties. But looking at her.. she's too young for it. Matangkad, slim ang figures at maayos magdala sa sarili.. Maputi, matangos ang ilong, at medyo tsinita. Whereas me, i've got my eyes from my dad. An almond shaped with a rich chocolate brown shade.

Mas lumapit at yumuko ng paunti- unti sa harap ko. God! I'm dead! She'll know i drink.

"Did you.. just drink? Or no.. you're drunk! My God! Klishere Fetili! What are you doing with your life! I'm dead tired.. from work. Tapos ganito ka?" Mahina ngunit dismayado nitong saad.

Napayuko ito nang kaonti at medyo tumahimik.

"M-mom.. I'm so s-sorry. Di kaagad ako nakauwi. I'm with Gail and friends."

Napaangat ang galit na titig nito sa akin.

"God! What i'm gonna do with you? It's doesn't matter, whose with you! Now, all i want to know is! Why are you doing all these huh?" Her tone were a bit changed from mad to furious. It's like she's almost done with me and to whatever i'm gonna say.

"M-mom. Please, i don't know what you're talking about.. Hindi ko rin alam kung anong dapat kong sabihin na gusto nyong marinig mula sa'kin. I'm not doing anything stupid okay? If that's what you want me to hear. Wala mom.. Di ko kailanman gagawin 'yon. I had a couple of drinks.. and that's it. But i'm not drunk.. I'm more than sober than those drunk ones." Pilit kong rason sa mababang boses.

Ni minsan di ako umabot sa puntong sumasagot ng pabalang, lalo na sa mom ko. I love her. I wish i could take it back.. But i already did. And it pained me to hurt her this way.

God, i'm making this even worst! Wala akong maisip na sabihin. I'm too tired to argue. I want to rest.. but she's pushing me.. to my limits! I know, she's my mother and i respect her! Pero di na nga ako bata.. na.. lagi na lang akong pinagsasabihan ng mga dapat kung gawin! It's suffocating me!

"Did you just slap me with your words, Klishere Fetili? Huh?! You are not my sweet little baby, anymore!Ibang-iba ka na! I feel like your isolating yourself with us! And with that kind of attitude? No. Ano bang nangyayari sa'yo? Tell me!" Tumaas na ang boses nito. Halos demanding na humarap na nakapamaywang sa akin.

Masyado ring tahimik ang dalawang palapag na bahay. Tila wala kaming ibang kasama. Naiintindihan ko naman kung anong pinanggagalingan niya eh. Alam ko kaso di naman pwedeng laging ganito.. di ba? Na lahat puro sigawan at laging galit, na wala ng katapusan.

"Mom. Okay lang ako.. Ako parin naman 'to. Gusto ko lang magpahinga, pasensya na po.. sorry." mahina kong bulong.

Napabuntonghininga at medyo tumahimik. Nag-isip bago mahinang tumango. Napansin ko ang malungkot nitong mga mata. She's dismissing me this easy.. huh? I didn't saw this coming.