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The question

I asked to move in with my dad.

I think I'lll get better if I'm there.

I think things will get better for me.

I don't know.

My whole family on my moms side constantly judged everything, and everyone.

I'm sick and tired of it.

When I asked,

My mom yelled, screamed, asked me why, told me he has never done anything for me.

I couldn'r tell her all the reason I wanted t leave.o

I just said "I'm tired of hurting people, and making them mad, and making you upset, and causeing stress in every ones life."

That same day that I asked to leave I got snitched on for skipping a class,

And my mom called the school to talk to me.

My mother told me "You are the reason for all the unnecessary stress in my life."

Most of the reasons why I started cutting was because of my mother.

She makes me feel like nothing.

She makes me feel worthless,

And a mess up.

I live in the perfect family.

But at my dads house,

No ones perfect,

And they except that,

They except you.

But at my mothers,

Total diffrent story.

They ask, "What happened to that sweet little girl."

Well you know what bitch,

People like you killed her.

You are not getting her back.

I can promise you that much.....

I have to live with my dad.

II know I'll get better.

He doesn't try to shield me from the world.

He doesn't tell me everything that's going on in the world.

My mother constantly is telling me what bad people are around our house.

I tell her to stop being so overly protective.

All she says is, "It's a mothers job to be over protective, You'll be like this."

Well you know what mother.

I wont be like that.

And no its not.

None of my friends parents are like that.

Losen up a bit.

My dad lets me walk around the neighborhood.

He even tells me to go outside.

The one time I asked to go outside and walk at my moms house my mother gave me this looks and said, "I'm not even going to answer that." I said "That's a no ain't it?" she said "That's a no but hell no."

In the end I was able to but I didn't because my friend was leaving and I know I couldn't go without her.

My step dad walked in and asked her why I couldn't go for a walk.

When I went back to the dinning room where she was she said, "You can go but, no talking to strangers, keep your phone on you, don't go into any houses, and be back in less than 20 minutes."

I just hate it at her house.

I need change.

I have to go to my dads house.

My mother doesn't even trust me anymore.

She took all my money out of tmy bank acount and said "I dont know what is going on in your head. But until all this stops I'm keeping your $932 in the safe. And you're not aloud anywhere near it."

GOD GET ME OUT OF HERE ALREADY. I HATE THIS PLACE.