Keep quiet

Stupid

Am I stupid or something for still wanting him?
I act okay. I say I'm fine. But, I'm dying on the inside.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I was told so many lies.
But I still want him.
Last night I was crying so much.
My mom came in and asked who I was talking to.
I said "no one... It's just my music."
Every fuckin song.
Tears come streaming down.
God. Heartbreak changes people.
I kinda think he just moved on,
And I kinda think he still wants me too.
I've talked to him a little bit.
He made it seem like he still wanted me.
But so many lies.
And I stupid or something?
Of course I am.
I always was.
Always will be.
I do stupid things.
I say stupid things.
I believe stupid things.
I am stupid.

Maybe he was right.
"life = shit love = shit everything? = shit"