𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟓𝟕

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I ran as fast as my legs could carry me, I make it to my house, I climbed up the pipe and gripped my fingers under the window and pulled it open, I climbed through my window and threw myself on my bed, I sat facing the ceiling completely numb, A single tear rolled down from my eye, I sat up and grabbed the pill bottle from my side table, I opened the tub and took about seven out, I swallowed all the pills instantly feeling the difference, It was either me or him I thought to myself, I scoffed and chugged the whole tub,

The police had probably already found the body, The body of the man I killed, John Foster, I stood up and got my blade from my desk drawer, I slide the blade on my wrist over my previous scars, I wanted to feel something again, I throw the blade back and wiped the blood off, I pace around my room back and forth getting dizzy, my head full of thoughts, Everything was wrong

I grabbed my phone and dialed Freddie's number, Straight to voicemail, I hung up and rang Tony, "Ugh, What the fuck you phoning me at this time" Tony complained into the phone clearly just woke up, "I did something bad" I blurted out, "What? What happened? Aphrodite!" He asked me, "It's just- I" I stuttered, I felt even dizzier I sigh before hanging up not letting him say anything I let the pain sink in, My eyes rolled back and I was out.

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I woke up, I had a pounding headache, I could barely move, I was in my bed still, "Ow" I exclaimed I move and reach my phone, I've been out for three days? I looked at my notifications, There we're text messages mostly from Tony

APHRODITE
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WHY DID YOU HANG UP?
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CALL ME BACK
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ANSWER
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WHAT DID U DO
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WAIT IM ACTUALLY WORRIED CAN YOU PLEASE PICK UP
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APRHO
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PLEASE RESPOND
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PLZ
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DO U WANT ME TO COME OVER? ILL GET A TRAIN!!???
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PLEASE ANSWER
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ITS BEEN AN HOUR R U OK
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APRHO IM CALLING MUM
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LISTEN
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PLEASE ANSWERRR

I stop reading the messages from Tony and go to my other notifications, Evan.

AYO UR BROTHER JUST TEXT ME
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HE ASK IF I WITH U WHICH IM NOT LOL
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ANYWAYS WHERE RU U OKAY? CALL ME XXXXX :]

I got 27 missed calls from Tony and 12 voicemails, I text him back

SORRY I WAS OUT FOR 3 DAYS YKWIM

I felt a bit guilty for taking the pills, I sure as hell regret it, I scroll down to see Effy had messaged me, I click on the message

UH JOHN COMMITED SUICIDE WTF
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My lips parted as I read the message, I close my eyes for a second, "Fuck" I breathed, tears poured out my eyes as I had realised what I had done my stomach was tucking itself in as tears came out

WOW

I replied back, I shut my phone and got in the shower I smelt bad, I had been laying on that bed for 3 days drowning in sweat

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UR ONLINE FINALLY WANNA COME OVER??

FROM: EVAN
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I agree to his text message, I get dressed in a light gray oversized hoodie and black gray tracksuit bottoms, I walk my way to Evans house, I knock on the door and he lets me in, "Hey" He says leading me to his room, "What happened?" Evan asked me, "I think I overdosed or something" I answered, "For real? Shit" He sighed, Evan rubbed the back of his neck before pulling me in a hug

"It'll get better" He reassured me, I knew it wasn't going to but I agreed to it just for the sake of making him not feel bad or anything, "I don't wanna talk about it can we just like do something?" I asked, "Uh sure, Want a cigarette?" He asked me, I nod, He grabbed two cigarettes out the packet and put one in his mouth, He placed the cigarette in between my lips and grabbed his lighter, Evan pressed down on the lighter lighting us and his at the same time our face eight inches away from each other (the tension in this)

Evan leaned back and blew smoke out his mouth, I did the same, "So, were you like knocked out for three days?" He asked me, "Shit happens you know" I told him, "So are you good now?" Evan asked me, I raise my eyebrows "Not hundred percent" I chuckled taking a drag of my cigarette, My smile drops as I think back to seeing Johns red fingers grasping onto the edge and quickly slipping off, "Hey, you good?" Evan asked me, "Yeah" I lied

My phone went off, I opened my phone it was a message from Tony

AY WHAT R U OK NOW?
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IM BUSY

I close my phone, "Who's that? Your brother?" Evan asked me, "Yeah, I told him I was out for three days" I told Evan, "You was?" Evan exclaimed, "Shit" Evan breathed

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ah so skins is basically over, BUT i'm gonna do much more chapters <3

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