..Was that really him?
,,-d-..did i saw him..?"
...was that..
Really ..his sunshine?
..No..No hiral,don t be stupid,that wasn t him!..for sure it wasn t,why woukd Vladimir be in Kolechia?
..chalenks did say he will take them tona safe place..No,no..Obristan was the best choice,why in the hell woukd they ve in kolechia?!
..You just imagined him
,,-...his..eyes.."
..Maybe he was just staring in shock..seing a member of a violent rebelion that wants to overtrow a whole regyme with..Girl-ish things
..you never told me how they let you dye your hair in Federation
,,-..I had dyed it befoure i got in the order..After that ,they needed someone to learn robotics in united federation and make weapons ...They sent me since I had a history of tech-like drawings and my hair was already damaged by dye
...i also wanted to go..And..And..Alot of federatian dye hair.."
...Oh yea...
..i missed you,y know..?
It was hard playing a dumb Arstotzkanian in Arstotzka..Damaging every pice of equipment or soldier whenever i had the chance to sabotage them
,,-..You..could had not hurt..him"
..Well I didn t recogcnize you with the new hair color..piercings,masks..not looking so fraile and thin..
..You should get going,they told you to not stay much..still have to find another military camp
,,-..Yea..kinda dumb i can t test it anywherezi know how it works,i won t blow up a village"
..hey,i don t make the rules
,,-Yea right"
..So,anyway..Cutting the chit-chat
He started walking.Said his most formal goodbyes to.his superiors and colleagues and left to trick another military base he was a registerer inventor..None of them will be as great as the arstotzkan one but..Everything will do if he can comtinue his job.
The sun was setting..Pink was tired..hungry..he couldn t even walk on the street anymore,he had to go trough the forest since kolechian soldiers were taking care of all the villigaes and making sure none of them got in
..He wandered alot..After not long he feel down,propper his head against a tree and closed his eyes..he has never been so tired in his live and..He didn t even know why..
..probably all the thinking about his crush..Or the long walk from Arstotzka to all the train stations or subways..the unslept nights
..It was starying to pile on
..He really missed that..small..frail..fair skined..blonde man..Blonde small man with..the round nose and freckles covering his face..with a non sharp..almost in the backround smell of sweet..alcoohol..
..Pink didn t even knew why he smelled all the time like alcoohol..never saw vladimir drinking..
Never the less..he loved the smell..sometimes he even smelled like roses..
..on the longest nights,those two smells were the drest thing he could feel..Roses and a bit of alcoohol.
..he missed him so much,the inventor could swear he could even hear his voice in the distance..in the long..oong lost distance..
..couldn t be him.
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,,-..We can t sleep in motels..or hotels..Or in anyones house,got it?"
,,-..Sergiu,with all due respect,I can t let Vladimir sleep outside ! Just look like him..he s..so lost he barely hears us..just walking mindlesly...His mental state is bad enough,he doesn t need more bad tgings like..cold or wet grass or-
,,-..do you want kolechians to barge on our door and shot him?"
,,-..no..But-!"
,,-..I.."..spoke the liitke arstotzkanian,finally..finally trying to get back on reality..and try to forget about him..
..he couldn t
..But he was trying!..
,,-..I will he alright..thank you for trying to take care of me,general Viktor.."
,,-..i-..it s vik"
He looked ..well..Nowhere
...did he really saw him..?
..he bit his lips in desgust towards himself..he hated himself so..so much
..why couldn t he forget about him?..For at least a few second so he could talk properly with his friend!
,,-..Vik..yea"
,,-...Vladimir,you gotta tell us why are you like this..We can t f****** keep walking and pretend that everythings is good!"
..vladimir bit his lips harder..some tears rolled from his eyes
,,-I-..i miss him"
..sergiu looked at his feet in understanding..Yet he didn t barge in to say anything.He knew it wasn t his place to talk
,,-..Who..him?"
Vladimir nodded
,,-s-..so..so much..I am..so..so cold,vik!.."
,,-..Vladimir-"started the general but the blonde man interuoted him
,,-..A-..And i saw him today!"..he was drowning in tears,trying his best to have a decent diction..his voice craking and shaking didn t help.
..Vladimir continuer
,,-H-He was with them! He was with the order,Vik!..With the order!..How..How could he,I-.."he hit a tree hard..,,-h..how could he?.."he let himself fall down
,,-..."
He wiped his tears the best he could
,,-..Why didn t you trll me..?"
,,-..you wouldn t had belive me..And i,myself,realized who he was to late"
..He nodded..knowing the general was right
Vladimir wouldn t had belive him
..he couldn t even belive it now.
..He tought this was a dream..
..he wanted to hate him..he couldn t even do that
,,-..i want to wake up..from this fursed dream"
,,-..it s not a dream,vladimir.."
,,-..It feels like it is!..Everytime i am trying to ve a good person,witch is all the time,something bad happends! Something horible! I loved him so much,i wanted to forgive him,i want to forgive him,but he breaks me more and more every time!.."
,,-..it s not your fault,little one"..said Sergiu..finally opening his mounth
,,-..i know that..god,i know that..but no matter if it is or not my fault..it always happends to me"
