Over Again (Liam Paynes Fanfic, Does include other boys)

Worthless

It was the night of the One Direction Concert. I hadn't seen much of Leila because she had been at collage doing hair and beauty. It was time to get ready, i walked into the clothes room where all my clothes were hung or folded in colour. A whole room, just for clothes. As i walked in i wondered what i should wear at a concert. Is it formal or informal? I picked out a black glitter top and some black and white tribal leggings. I tried them on and in my own opinion i thought they looked quite nice however you could still see the scars and cuts on my arms, i couldn't have Leah and Antonia seeing my scars. I only wanted Leila to know. I found myself a black cardigan to cover up my scars and cuts. I looked at my arm to see a scar 'Worthless' it read. I liked this outfit it made me look like a normal girl. I liked that. I went into the room in my house where all my hair and make-up products were. I put my long luxious hair up into a messy bun and plaited it around with the hair that was left over. I did my normal make-up after this but added some blush, to cover up my pale cheeks. Liquid liner to take away the look of fear in my eyes and i added nude lipstick to take away the internsity from my eyes. When  i got myself fully ready, i had enough time to get  Aimee into her pjs. Before leaving i went to check up an my mum. As i walked into her room i felt a sharp slap around my face. I ran out of her room locking the door behind me. Spriting out of the house i did not realise that i had blood dripping down my face.

I got to Leilas house and her mum answered the door. She gasped and gently lead me inside. I was pulling the push chair behind me. "What did you do Ana-Lucia?" How did she know it was me we had never spoken. "I..Errr.. I Fell... On... On the Wheel of the push charir" i stutted. "Here let me clean it up". She walked out of the room to get something to clear it up and she shouted to Leila to mention that i was here. She came back in with some cotton wool. "Do you want me to call your mum Ana-Lucia?" I panicked, what did i say? "Ermm.. No its fine, she has gone out, don't want to ruin her night." i replied quickly not knowing if the lie i had told had made sense. "What about your Dad" she persisted. "No, its fine, nobody needs to know, it will just ruin their evenings." I hesitantly answered. "Ok, if your sure, its not that deep, ill just clean it abit more and nobody will even notice" Leila mum inplied. "Tell me about yourself Ana-Lucia". I panicked again. What was i supposed to say. I can't lie again. "Ana-Lucia are you ready?" Leila Interupted. "Yes, coming, sorry miss, i will tell you about myself soon. Please look after Aimee, you don't know how much she means to me.. You know like a sister could... She is everything to me." I spoke quickly. "I will look after her like she was my own". "Thank you" i spoke shakily. I didn't want to leave her. I must. it will be suspicious if i don't. Do you think she is suspicious. I sure hope not.

I got in the back of Leila car as we set off to the concert. On the way we picked up Leila friends. Leah first and then Antonia not far after.I sat next to Antonia or Toni as i called her. We got talking. Wow. I really liked these girls. Sometimes i wish i hadn't shut myself out from people for so long. They were asking me loads of questions about myself though, but Leila interupted with any i couldn't answer without putting myself in danger, like she did at her house. They asked me about my eye, i hadnt told Leila about this yet, i would i a mnute, when we got to the toilets. When we got to the concert, we walked to our seats. Front row. Yes. The girls went to the toilets and me and Leila stayed with our seats. I told Leila about my eye. She seemed so worried for me. I've had the abuse for the last 2 years, this isnt that bad. The others came back just as the concert was begining. All the way through the concert i was thinking about Aimee, i had the picture of her in my hand all the way through and she is also the front screen to my phone. Everyone thinks she is my sister.

When the concert ended, the four of us thought we should wait until all the crowd goes, so we didn't get caught in the mad rush of screaming girls. I was panicing about Aimee and by the looks of the other girls, they could see i was but only Leila understood why. I looked up, with a worried expression. To see two eyes looking at us from a gap in the curtains on stage. I didn't know who it was though. I was to paniced to realise. we were all sat on the front talking about how amazing the concert was. It really was. leila kept smiling at me, in a way that spoke, thank you for coming you deserve a break. Just as we are about to leave, a guys in a hood came over to us. When he took his hod down, we realised it was Liam. WOW. This was amazing, not only had i come to a concert of the band i most love, but i also was stood next to Liam Payne. And, he was talking to us. "Hi, i saw you when i was on stage, most the way though the concert you looked worried, are you ok?" "You saw me, thats embarrasing". Thats quite worrying accualy, how many other people saw me? Did anyone get suspicious? I started working myself. I could feel tears running down my face. He looked at me, worried. "You have a bruise on your face, are you alright?" he asked me politley. "I'm fine." i snapped back. i was getting worked up. i needed to get Aimee. I needed to know she was safe. I started to cry. 

Liam went to hug me. As soon as he touched my back with his fingers. I leapt out. I swung my arms to push him away. I felt my nails touch his face. Shit. "get off me!" i shouted and ran away up the areana.  This was so out of character. what had i done? Whas this because of my past. I can't do this everytime a guy touches me; even friendly touch. I ran to the dor, as i turned around i saw Leila give Liam a peice of paper. What was that. They quickly spoke and then i ran. I ran into the toilets accross from the door. I grabbed out a compuss in which was in my bad and took my cardigan off.  I burst out into tears and i dug the compuss into my arm. the fist letter i spelled was D. The pain carriend on as i cut the word DEATH into my arm. I needed to die. I just hurt someone who had tried to help me. I could her the girls shouting me outside the toilets. I quickly put my cardigen on and stepped out of the toilet cubicle. Infront of me was a mirror. I looked into in. I saw he bruise on my face. In the reflection i saw someone who needed to die. Someone whos dad is in prison. Someone whos mum is an alcohol. I'm 13 and already my life is one big lie. 

When we got back to Leila's house, i ran in and picked up my daughter. She woke up and touched my face as if to speak, 'its fine, not be worried, i love you'. I hugged her so hard and then realised Leila and her mum were stood at the door. I was supposed to sleep at Leilas last night but i needed to go home and see my mum, to make sure she was alright. I unlocked the door to my house and saw my mum, lying on the floor at the bottom of the stairs. She wasn't moving. She must have unlocked her door. I ran in leaving Aimee in her pram because she had fallen back to sleep. I shouted mum. Why wasn't she answering me. I shook her. As i was shaking her, i heard someone at the door behind me. KNOCK-KNOCK-KNOCK. The silver door knocker banged. I opened the door and ran back to my mum. It didn't matter who it was, i just needed to get my mum upstairs. "Help" i screamed to the stranger at the door.