Phan Oneshot Collection

Stardust

Summary:
It's been a while since Phil left. 2 months, 3 weeks, and 4 days to be exact. And among the tears, nightmares, and blackness, there is only one thought on Dan's mind. "When will I see you again?

Please note:
This fic is based off the song Stardust by Mika. Similar to The Real World, you don't need to listen to the song to enjoy the fic, although, unlike TRW, it might help a lot. I have attached the song if you want to give it a listen. This fic also includes Musician!Dan and Youtuber!Phil. Lastly, there is a character named Dana. Has nothing to do with Dan but that's just how it fell out sorry

Warnings: some swearing, light pre-panic attack, sadness

Word count: 4861

Genre: angst, some fluff at the end

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The fiery rays of the sunset stretched across the city of London, igniting everything they touched, bringing joy, bringing life. But, in the windowsill of a dark, small, lonely apartment, sat a dark figure that the sun seemed to have passed over. Someone whose grief, whose darkness was too much for the sun to overcome. And this man went by the name of Dan Howell.

I gazed down at the street below me. Crowds of people bustling about, making way with their evening. Children skipped along the sidewalk, an older woman sat reading a novel on a bench, and couples held hands as they strolled through the summer breeze. Everyone seemed so happy, so cheerful. Everyone's hearts were brimming, boiling with love.

Was I jealous? I guess you could say that. I glanced over at the office desk, just to my right. A piece of paper with a girl's phone number- I have forgotten her name- was scrawled across it. It then came to me, as I realised I could have that. I could be be with someone. I could be in love again.

But with that word, love, his face slowly emerged in my mind.

I closed the curtains, and started to leave the office, to go to my bedroom. But before I got there, I passed by his empty room. And, even though there was nothing left in there except for a lonely bed frame and a dusty desk, it all hit me in a tidal wave of memories.
And I tumbled into oblivion.

"This was the most fun I've ever had." And suddenly, he was tackling me in a hug.

I got caught in his dazzling oceanic eyes, and it came to me just how much I felt like I was falling in love.

"Thank you," I whispered. "For being the thunder to my rain."

I stumbled over to my bed, and shakily crawled underneath the covers, the stars falling from the sky, crashing into my heart, shattering it.

No more thinking like that Dan, I chided myself. He's gone now.

But as I drifted off to sleep, I couldn't help that one thought from swimming throughout my mind.

I wanna know if I'll see you again.

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"You are my best friend as well as my lover, and I do not know which side of you I enjoy the most. I treasure each side, just as I have treasured our life together."

I heard Nicolas Sparks's voice coming from the television screen, and, though I had stopped focussing long ago, those words sent me into another spiral of thoughts.

Like the time, years ago, we were at an airport.

4:49 am

I cuddled into his side, not caring about whoever saw. It was just me and him.