Spoken Poetry

Robot

I always feel like I'm running
Even though I'm just sitting
My mind are in haze
I feel nauseated

I always feel like I'm running
Even though I'm just lying
I feel so tired
I feel so wasted

Im hurt but I act as if I'm fine
I bury what I feel just to be seen okay
Im in pain but I never showed it
I put on my façade so they wont notice

I just wanted to feel the pain
I feel so numb that I don't feel any
I just wanted to cry and shout
But there's no voice nor tears wanted to escape

Im so tired of myself
For locking all the emotions
Just to be seen by everyone that I'm okay
When the truth is I am not

Im so afraid of showing my emotion
Because I feel like showing it means showing my weakness
But I'm tired being strong
Holding in from within just for it not to be seen

Im so tired of myself
I feel like a robot
Why can't I let myself to be just human
Who somewhat feel emotion

I'm tired of running
But I cant seem to stop
I'm tired of running
But even how much I tried I can't stop