Tell no one - Paddy Holland

Chapter 18

I am once again apologizing for slow updates. Sorry <3 anyways happy Valentine's Day and happy birthday to the twins

Sophmore year of high school.

Honestly ironically enough I wasn't worried at all.

I was ready and let's face it, it's not like I was stressing about college with a Marvel contract.

The first day was effortless almost.

My friends and I just got to all hang out for a few hours while the freshman walked around looking terrified.

The next few weeks went about that smoothly.

More than anything I missed my Marvel family.

I missed the way Tom would laugh at anything. I missed the way Anthony and Sebastian would fight like teenagers. I missed the way Scarlett would sit with me and make funny comments about what everyone was doing. I missed when Robert would break character during the most random moments and Evans would lose his shit.

I missed them.

It was the end of September on a Friday afternoon.

I was in my last class of the day, history.

My teacher was just finished making some demonstration about the civil war when we heard a knock on the door.

I wondered which teacher had some "urgent" message to deliver this time.

"Come on in" my history teach yelled.

I made brief eye contact with Ella who mouthed "10 more minutes"

I smiled.

The door cracked open.

"The house is a lot quieter without you" Tom said.

"HOLY SHIT" I screamed running into his arms.

My history teacher laughed, I am extremely lucky it was him and not someone else or I would have gotten a wonderful detention slip.

"What are you doing here?" I whispered still hugging Tom.

"I told you I had a flight" he smiled

"Yeah a flight for November" I said still shocked.

"Guess I missed you" he said with a smirk.

Tom actually convinced my history teacher to let us out of class 10 minutes early and we sped off from school as fast as we could.

Tom dropped his stuff off, I changed, and we hit all our favorite spots ending with a small pizza place on the upper west side.

As we sat eating our pizza we caught up a bit from the last few weeks.

"So how's Paddy?" I asked as casually as I could.

Ok, I knew how my own boyfriend was, but it was easier to make sure he was really okay when we lived 5 minutes away.

"Now that you mention it, I don't know he's been kinda off" Tom said taking a bite.

"K-kinda off how?" I pried further.

"Well he's just been a lot sadder recently. Something happened and now he's just all gloomy" Tom explained, "he's been eating less and I literally went to go get a glass of water at 3 AM the other night and he was just sitting by the window."

Why didn't he tell me he was so miserable?

"Do you know why?" I asked.

"No clue! I asked him the other day and he told me I was being mental and that he was fine"

"I'll talk to him and see what's going on" I promised.

Tom smiled and we continued to eat.

Afterwards we went back to my house and talked and laughed and watched movies for hours.

3 days later he left and I could finally call my boyfriend.

I always called around 5 pm London time cause that's when he's usually around.

He picked up after a few rings.

"Hey" I said.

He laughed a bit "wow I really needed to hear your voice"

"Paddy what's wrong?" I asked.

"Nothing angel I'm fine" he said.

"Your brother doesn't think so" I said.

"Toms just being-"

"Mental?" I prompted.

He sighed "I just miss you" he confessed.

My face fell.

We had been doing this long distance thing for a while now and in the back of my mind I was always worried that I was holding him back.

"Paddy look I love you but I don't want to hold you back, If you want to-"

"Stop. Don't finish that sentence" paddy said firmly.

I was so close to tears.

"We're not breaking up" he said

A tear slid down my cheek.

"I need you" he whispered.

"I need you too. I love you paddy" I whispered back.

We talked a little more and eventually we both had to go.

But something in me just felt like I had to see him....

I promise I'll have something soon
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