starting over | s. tankian x reader

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You went straight for your bedroom and quickly changed into a pair of sweatpants along with a oversized shirt, which was also known as your pajamas, before laying down in the bed. You pulled the covers ontop of yourself and instantly felt comfortable as you began to feel sleepy once again, eventually giving up the fight as you slowly fell asleep..

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As the days went by, you learned more about Serj and the rest of the group, the four of them officially welcoming you into the group within less than a week.. you honestly felt like you've known them forever, which was pretty suprising considering that you met them over a week ago. You especially felt this way about Serj though.

The two of you kept your promise of hanging out with one another outside of school, both of you going directly to Serj's place once the school day was over it. You two would usually do your homework together, if you were assigned homework on that day, or simply just talk to one another about literally anything. Even though it wasn't the most exciting thing in the world to be doing, you greatly enjoyed doing it — and the fact that you knew Serj was enjoying it as much as you were made you enjoy it even more, if that's even possible.

The more time you spent with him though, you had began to realize something.. something that you never would've seen coming — you were undoubtedly falling for Serj Tankian.

You don't exactly remember when the realization hit you, but you knew that it all made sense, with the way you quickly became attached to Serj.. it honestly scared you. You've never felt this way about anyone else before, and never did you think it'd happen this quickly. It scared you because you've never felt so comfortable around someone,
you've always locked yourself away until now, you guessed that this was karma for doing so.

What really scared you though, was the fact that you had no idea if Serj felt the same way towards you.

You could easily ask him, easily confess your true feelings to him... but you were just too afraid to do it. You were afraid that you could possibly ruin everything between the two of you, and even if he politely rejected you and wanted to continue the friendship.. you knew that things between the two of you wouldn't be the same.

You were afraid that you were going to be forced to suppress those feelings towards him forever, the thought of doing that paining you since, well, he's the first person who you've really opened up to.. the first person who's really opened up to you in return.

But, you honestly didn't know what else to do other than to repress your true feelings everytime he came around you..

All you simply wanted to know was if Serj felt the same, if he feels the same feelings that you're experiencing, if it was painting him as much as it was paining you — you just simply wanted to know.

And, to your surprise, you were soon going to receive your answer...

(OMG im so sorry for not posting anything last week, i wrote this to make up for it tbh which is why its so short LMAO. an actual chapter is coming soon tho!! 😋)