LOST AND FOUND [ Taejin ]✔

[ we loved ]

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"Good, mine is happy too"

Seokjin smiled hearing Taehyung. They settled in the warmth, appreciating the silence. Seokjin is the one who broke the silence, unlike him.

" Tae, I don't know what or how to start but we should talk I guess, about us "

" Hmm... We should. Before we start talking about anything, I want you to know I love you so much. Yes, indeed, I wasn't fond of you when we got married, it was more of a force from my parents and I felt trapped but you loved me, and made me love you too. You taught me to love Seok-jin. So I loved you before we got divorced I was really in love with you. And right now I am in love with you too, not because we were married, not because we have a precious pearl between us. It's because I love you "

As Taehyung expressed his love, seokjin's hold on Taehyung tightened, this time with confidence.

" And I loved you too, Taehyung and I am in love with you, though it sounds unbelievable for you I will love you forever Taehyung. Like how I love Aru, you know unconditional love, which they talk about in novels. You and Areum make my world."

Taehyung's fingers caressed Seokjin's cheeks which were wet by the stream of tears.

" But... I...I don't know why.....Sorry, I think I am incapable of loving anyone. I...don't know how, But I want to love you Taehyung, I want to love Aru and I want to love all the people around me. I don't...I don't want people to leave me....it's just... it hurt Tae, so much "

Taehyung leaned to Seokjin and pressed his trembling lips on seokjins. They stayed together like that, neither deepening the kiss nor breaking it.

" I love you Taehyung, please don't leave me. I will correct myself however you say, whatever you say. Just....i...."

The words came with hiccups in between. Taehyung had never seen Seokjin this openly emotional, except when Aru was born, seokjin bawled his eyes out that day.

"Seokjin look at me "

Once Seokjin calmed a little Taehyung moved out of the embrace not liking Seokjin. Finally, they sat with crossed legs in front of each other. Holding hands.

" You know, why did our marriage go downhill??"

" Because of my incapability to love someone "

Taehyung took a deep breath, he knows, no it's not, but how to pull out those deeply rooted beliefs in Seokjin.

" Seokjin, I am not good at words but I will try to convey what I want to say, our marriage went downhill because we both let it happen, we both were desperate for love and we tried to seek it in the wrong way.

I demand the love while you beg for it, letting ourselves loose in it. But we never gained anything back. We loved each other but in the wrong way, when it's not conveyed to the other person, love loses its value Seok-jin.

We both have to learn it. I am willing because I do want to love you to make you feel you are loved by me. I want to know how can I pour all of my love into you, I want to lose in you to gain myself. I want you to love me too.

Never say you are incapable because you are the first one who made me believe in happy endings are the real start. You are the one who made me feel special, cared for, mattered, respected. You gave me the new life which I was always seeking, I don't want us to fuck it up again. Seokjin let's take help, something.... let's do something seokjin. Please. "

What seokjin can do!!? Looking at Taehyung who is sitting in his bed in his pajamas, crying and telling him he wants them to learn how to love Seokjin is not incapable, it's just he doesn't know how to love. This sounds a little better than those thoughts of how is so incapable, how he might have a birth defect of not being able to love someone. So if he learns how to express himself, he can love Tae, and Areum unconditionally the way he always wanted to. And he will be loved back by Taehyung. His Taehyung, who still loves him.

" I will do, anything you say. I will do anything. So... it's true right, I am not incapable it's just I don't know how to express my love or you are saying just because..."

Seokjin was silenced by Taehyung's lips for seconds. Seokjin wanted to chase these choppy lips when they left him, but he wanted to hear Taehyung saying it once again.

" yes, it's true. Do you know how you could tame the tiger in me?? It's because of your love and Namjoon hung your best friend, why did he stick to you even when he got better options abroad!? because he loves and respects you. And your workers god they love you so much because you are so respectful boss to them.

And Jungkook, God he was such a pain in my ass when I knew he fell for you, it truly made me cry thinking how he is better than me. And my friends Yoongi Hyung, and Hoseok Hyung love you because you are a lovely person. And Jimin, do you even know how it's not easy for him to get convinced about someone as loveable!? He kicked my ass tonight because he doesn't want me to lose you.

And have you ever seen how our daughter looks at you, how happily she giggles once she hears your voice, how healthy she is growing up? It's all because of your love, Seok-jin.

Everyone knows how nice, kind, and lovable you are. Because all you do is treat people nicely, kindly with respect and you genuinely love people around you. The one who didn't stay back doesn't deserve you Seok-jin.

Trust me the old me doesn't deserve you too. So I want to grow as someone who deserves you. I want us to be deserving of each other."

Seokjin surely had a blush on his cheeks, it was something Taehyung could never trade for anything. He will be extra cheesy, he will read the dictionary to learn all those beautiful words to make Seokjin blush again and again.

" Sure you were a tiger "

The words came in a whisper, yet Taehyung could hear. He couldn't control his blush, remembering how much brat tiger he was when they got married.

" Hmm... I...so I am thinking about us taking professional help. I want us to talk about our problems openly and will seek solutions with their help. What do you say?"

It's something out of Seokjin's comfort zone. Talking about his emotions, his parents, his pains....there are more what-ifs, more doubts, more discomfort. But he can't live with them anymore not when Taehyung tells him it's affecting their relationship.

If it's successful, then he gets to have a complete family. Aru will be having parents, not dad and papa. Taehyung will be there. He will be loved by the person he fell in love with.

" Okay, I will try. We will try."

" Okay "

Now suddenly there is so much tension. So they conveyed their feelings, which were overdue for years. Now they even find a temporary solution to their problems. Suddenly it hit them now they are not married. They are single.

" Hmm, seokjin...if it doesn't work out at the end, though I can never imagine it, I can't let it happen but I want you to know you are free to move on-"

This time it's Seokjin who pressed his lips on Taehyung. This is what he always sought when it comes to the matter of intimacy, he wanted Seokjin to take the initiative. Though it's inappropriate to feel how hot Seokjin is, how he wants Seokjin to pin him down now and fuck him raw and rough, he can't help but moan.

It's a little bit embarrassing how Seokjin is looking at him hearing his moan, just from the kiss. But it's not just a kiss for Taehyung.

It's a kiss from Seokjin, seokjin pulled Taehyung on him and attacked his lips without asking for consent. It's something....hmm... Taehyung's kink.

Seokjin being dom.

" We are going to work this out, if we fail, let's try again. Please "

Taehyung nodded his head as yes, not believing his voice. They kissed. Again and again.

And they slept both at the two ends of the bed facing each other. They looked at each other with smiles. It felt good. The space felt comfortable. Taehyung closed his lids first followed by Seokjin.

They had good sleep.