Fire starter (Ana X Bucky)

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Authors note: I'm sorry for what you are about to find out...I still love you guys!!

(Cassia POV)

I've managed to sneak out every morning to the lab without James noticing. Bruce and I have been working on a cure for over a month now with no luck. I have been noticing the effects already. I've become slower and more tired. 

Steve hasn't stopped going over Sharon's properties. She had a few hidden he never knew about.

When we got to the one Peggy gave him it was empty. Riddled with dust and spider webs. Yet it was surprisingly beautiful. The most peaceful home I have ever been in. Steve deserved a place like this. Even a family to fill it with. My thoughts were filled with the triplets running around in there, causing all kinds of troubles. This place would be perfect for them. James and I could find a nice house in the town nearby so we can all be close together too.

After an hour of tests with the new serums Bruce had managed to create I headed back to bed. It was nearly four thirty in the morning and I desperately wanted to avoid Steve. Unlike James, he wouldn't let go of me lying to them, if anything he would do everything in his power to get the truth even if it meant throwing away my privacy.

I sadly watched James sleep calmly. He didn't look like he had moved since I left which was good. I hated lying to him. I keep telling myself it's necessary. I feel my hand shake so I look down. That's been happening more often. Wrinkles on my fingers now show just a bit more prominently. The wrinkles around my eyes too. I tell the boys it's just exhaustion from looking for the kids but Bruce and I know better.

Once my hand stops shaking I slowly get back into bed. James feels the difference turning around to wrap his arm around my waist. I lay staring at him. For 106 he looks so young. For the next couple of hours I lay watching him. Imagining the life we could have if we find a cure.

"It's rude to stare" His groggy deep voice snaps me back into reality. 

"I wasn't...I was sleeping" I don't even close my eyes hoping I could see his. He peaks out opening only one eye.

"You haven't been sleeping between three AM and eleven PM in weeks doll." I freeze. He has noticed me getting out of bed, shit. I have to be more careful. He yawns pulling me closer. "It's okay. I figured you were sneaking out to Bruce for whatever it is that was on that file."

"Well I would sleep earlier if we weren't having sex every night" I joke. He wasn't laughing or smiling meaning he was serious. "I'm sorry..." I can feel my throat choke up and tears build behind my eyes.

"Shhh. You have enough on your shoulders, you don't need an angry boyfriend. I just hope you can trust me enough to tell me soon."

"I do trust you. I trust you with my life...it's just...."

"You can't talk about it." He repeats what I have said over and over again since I found out.

"Let's get breakfast and get ready for today's search okay?" I try to pull away from him but he holds me tighter.

"Someday you have to tell me. I'm here with you for everything, but you have to let me be here too. I don't want you going through anything alone." He gives me a kiss on the forehead before letting me go and walking to the bathroom. For a moment I lay in bed thinking I should tell him. Quickly I change my mind back. If he finds out his desire to find the kids will stop.

"All Avengers are requested to meet at the conference room immediately. Emergency code blue is in effect." Jarvis calls out. I jump out the bed getting dressed in my Baelfire suit, snapping the scabbard in place with the two swords. James walks out calmly making me stop to look at him.