You left me behind

Chapter 7: Thoughts

September

If Todoroki's mother was a color she would be grey. Like the light but dark clouds when it's about to storm. The fear something is going to happen. But she's truly just the one who's covering up for other people's problem. While she does that, she tries to do anything she can. Even if it includes hurting someone.

Shoto used to look up to her. But I think he meant more like he's looking up to the grey clouds.

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Bakugou's pov

"Something is wrong about that house." My mother stated

She just got back from over there. The look of puzzlement was on her face. Almost like she was rewinding everything that occurred.

"What happened?" I asked

"Rei said he hasn't been home in a while. But her eyes kept wondering like she was hiding something."

"Did you see anything in the house?"

"Nope, she wouldn't let me in the house. Her TV was loud but a weird buzzing sound was constantly going."

When I was there I never heard a buzzing noise. But the TV was really loud, honestly it was hard to pay attention with such a loud noise.

Everyday that goes by the worse my worry gets. It's already been a month and without him each second gets worse.

"Should we tell the police?"

"You know how the police are, they won't do anything about it."

"But at least they might look in the house!"

"We'll talk about this with your father later. You should be getting ready for school."

This was how she always got me to not talk about the topic. Always using the excuse of school.

I sighed and went upstairs getting ready. Everytime I step in here after yesterday I get goosebumps.

He was right here, but all I could do was scream. My mind went blank yesterday. I've wanted to say so much to him and when I could've nothing came out.

It was like he was different and it scared me. He was different. But those eyes still had the look of admiration and hope.

I knew that it was the same Shoto I known for years. The suddenness and horror honestly scared me so bad.

My mind always wanted to play games with me. This was a different level though.

Wearing a black shirt with light blue jeans with a chain I looked in the mirror. Trying to gain confidence but nothing worked.

"I'll find you someday, I promise."

I touched the mirror hoping he would appear. A tear slides down my cheek as hope gets thinner.

Putting my shoes on I walk down stairs. Today I don't want any breakfast. My meals are getting less everyday.

It's not that I don't want to eat. The feeling of throwing up afterwards is the problem.

"Do you want me to drive you to school today?"

"No, I'll just walk."

"Are you sure? You don't have long before it starts."

"It's fine walking won't take me that long."

She nodded as I grabbed my bag leaving the house. Closing the door I walked down the sidewalk.

The only sound was cars driving by and my footsteps. If Shoto was here we would be laughing together.

I really need to stop thinking if he was here. He'll never just show up randomly.

Everytime I think of him so many thoughts run through my brain. They all are worst thoughts possible though.

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*Later in school*

My head felt like it was pounding. Panic was running through my brain. I had to leave class early to calm down but I don't think this is helping.

Staring at myself in the bathroom mirror I felt terrible. Dark circles were under my eyes and my eyes dull.

I've gotten more pale but it could just be the panic attack. My lips cracked and busted. Anxiety makes me bite my lips a lot so it makes sense.

Suddenly the door opened and I glanced at it. Of course it's the person I don't want to see.

"Why are you here?" I asked raspy

"What do you mean? Shouldn't I ask where your friend with benefits is?"

"Shoto loved you! Why do you always say me and him did that stuff!?"

"Because you should've seen what he did with me kacchan." Deku smirked

He stood behind me and laughed. I stared at him in the mirror. Suddenly my head was slammed into the mirror.

I kicked him in the balls and turned around grabbing his hair roughly. He shouldn't think that I wouldn't do anything to him.

"Shoto wouldn't do shit with you. You deserve to be the one missing instead of him."

I could feel him shaking under my grip. Even if I want to do worse to him I have to go to the nurse.

Letting go of his hair he fell to the floor. I walked out and started going to the nurse's office.

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Flashback

"What happened to your shoulder?" I asked

"Oh, nothing just Natsuo and I were playing football and it hit my shoulder."

The huge bruise on his shoulder was a dark purple. But also seemed a bit torn like a wound.

"Have you hung out with Deku yet?"

"Midoriya, but yeah he invited me over yesterday."

"What happened?"

"We watched a movie and he tried to kiss me, but honestly I don't know how to kiss so I looked away."

"You rejected your crush!" I laughed

"Eh, it's not like I would actually marry him."

"Would you marry me?" I joked

"Probably it depends if we actually make it to that age." He smiled

The sun shining behind him made him look perfect. The smile effortless and the right amount of light. His half n half hair blowing in the wind.

"You're beautiful."

"Thanks, you don't need to always give me a compliment."

"There's so much about you though! And you always underestimate yourself and you shouldn't!"

"Katsuki. The compliments don't mean anything."

"Why not?"

"My father already calls me his masterpiece and I absolutely hate it."

"But I'm different!"

"The compliments aren't though."

"Shoto."

"Yeah?"

"There is so much I want to say but I'll probably never be able to say it."

His eyes looked into mine. The look of sadness and anxiety. If only I could calm down all his worries and help him.

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