Bandages •Taekook•

7.

some people get these random mood swings. where one minute you can be fine and then the next you are not.

but that's just the what happens, right?

hormones, right?

no. not for Taehyung. he already thought and told himself about that for years. even his own parents told him that. he's actually fine. just hormones. just growing up. just a teenage thing.

he guessed it was all just a lie and that he really did need help. he wanted to speak to someone but every time he tried he would stop speaking or be too nervous to tell someone in fear that they might leave or misunderstand him.

even think he is attention seeking, when more of he is trying to cry for help silently. no one understood him and he knew that.

especially when he started self harming. he thought that no one would definitely take him seriously now.

that's why he stopped talking about himself. or why he doesn't have friends. or didn't have friends. but at the same time he never really tried to get friends. he was scared

and at the same time, he wants to cry out everything that was eating him inside and get a long hug from someone. someone that actually cared about him.

he doesn't even remember the last time he was actually happy.

but when he sees a certain someone that has the biggest bunny-like smile, scrunchy nose and beautiful clear soft skin and a loveable, outgoing personality - he feels as ease. it makes his heart race. seeing him isn't what Taehyung is used to.

but he feels he can get use to this younger boy standing in front of the park ahead of him, waving a hand with that same famous bunny smile he sees almost every day.

a black school bag and full black uniform for school suiting his sense of style but opposite from personality.

he wonders why this boy wants to be friends with him. why he wants to be part of this dark life of his that he feels isn't as important as the raven head. seeming meaningless. the boy was completely different from Taehyung. but Taehyung knew that this is his only chance to have a friend. He has yoongi too of course.

they walk together to school. all he can hear Is cars passing, birds chirping, other students and people talking to one another as they walk past them. looking upwards seeing a clear sky yet as dull as ever. he thought it was beautiful. not cold yet breeze swifting by them making their hair flow on the same rhythm as the wind would be blowing. this was Taehyungs favourite kind of weather. little did he know, Jungkook enjoys this weather too.

"this is my favourite kind of weather" Jungkook softly smiled looking up.

"really? whys that?" taehyung asked, curious about the thoughts in the younger boy beside him.

"its calming. no rain yet no coldness. but its still warm..." Jungkook tries to explain and taehyung calmly nodded. he knew exactly what Jungkook meant. its like he read his mind.

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Jungkook let out a reliving sigh as he jumped up from his seat after hearing the bell for lunch. he was exited to see Taehyung. today was their last day of school before summer holidays, and Jungkook wanted to spend more time with him. so he was going to ask Taehyung to stay for a bit. you could say it was too quick, but he'd say it's a true bond they have.

Taehyung waiting at their usual spot on the rooftop, waiting for Jungkook then feeling a tug around his neck as he was pulled into the raven heads shoulder, now knowing that Jungkook was beside him.

"so Taehyung, since today is our last day, I was wondering if you wanna maybe stay tonight? I have so many games we could play!" The raven claps in excitement.

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He turned Jungkook down. not because he didn't want to stay with him, but because he felt as if he'd be a burden to him. so he just stayed alone at home.

sitting on the edge of his bed, thinking to himself how everything would just be if he had just disappeared. great. here comes back these feelings. the feelings that has a free will to take over his mind. as if they rudely make themselves at home inside his head. deciding whether or not to go to the bathroom, he stands up and lets his legs drag him there.

opening up the famous cupboard he goes to every night, he picks up a blade.

sitting on the bathroom tiles on the ground, he slowly lifts up his sleeve as he sees his scars and cuts. even though there were many, he just wanted nothing more but to feel more pain - yet more numbness.

tears falling from his face, he started cutting his arm, wincing at the pain. crying not understanding why he feels this way. more and more until he cant even lift his own arm. but he stops. he felt dizzy, tired and nauseous. everything around him was spinning as all he saw was blood on his floor rolling down his arm. and all he could think of at this point, was Jungkook.

he wanted to see him. he realised that he needs him now. he misses him.

"Taehyung? promise." he forcefully took Taehyungs pinky and intertwined it with his own. "promise...i'll always be here, okay?"

all Taehyung could think of was the words Jungkook had told him today.

"i'm here."

he could see was a blur of the youngers face.

slowly gripping his hand onto the bathroom sink lifting himself up, he packed his bags to stay with Jungkook for a while. he wanted to see him. he wasn't okay. he wanted to be comforted.

leaving his house in rain, all he could think about was Jungkook. he didn't even care nor realise he was bleeding through his shirt. he just wanting to get to him.

that's when he realised, that Jungkook was his important person.