only yours, only mine

chapter 1

y/n's pov:
"y/n jacob's here! it's dinner time!" my mom called from the kitchen downstairs,  swiping the flour off her forehead.

jacob's family has been attending our family dinners since i can remember. his parents are like parents to me, and his siblings are the three i was born without. of course i have my little brother joey, but he's not into the things i am. having someone like gracie or izzy is the best thing i can dream of! but having jacob is so much better. i love jacob so much. he's like a brother to me. he's been there for me through everything. even when his parents were in the process of a divorce and he had gone days without seeing anyone, he was there. for me.
i heard a gentle knock at my door in a specific pattern, and i instantly knew it was jacob.

"come in!" i yelled while lying in my bed scrolling through instagram.
jacob was leaned up against my door way smiling at me.
"hey y/n! your mom wanted me to come up and grab you for dinner." he scratched the back of his neck as he shuffled into my room.
"but i'm not hungryyyy" i pouted as i sat up and crossed my arms.
"y/n i will drag you out of this bed." his smile faded as he stared at me. "when's the last time you ate?"
"just a little bit ago." i shrugged. the truth was, i hadn't eaten in days. seeing the models on my instagram feed made me so insecure. i had been joining lexi at the gym and going out to lunch with her afterward, just to come home and make myself throw all of it back up again. i was finally starting to see a difference in my body and weight and i couldn't be any happier.
"fine then. guess i will have to drag you out of here." jacob hopped over to the edge of my bed and wrapped his hands around my waist, instantly sitting me down on the bed and looking straight at me.
"y/n what's going on. i can feel your ribs." he shuddered as he lifted up the corner of my shirt, making eye contact with me to make sure i was comfortable."
"jacob i'm fine, i promise. let's just go eat." i rolled my eyes and walked outside of my room and ran down the stairs, jacob following close behind.
"omg gracie! izzy! i missed u guys so much" i ran up to gracie and izzy and embraced them in a tight hug. "where's luke?" i questioned, peering over their heads to search for him.
"at a friends house." izzy shrugged.
"oh okay! ahh i love you guys so much!!" i hugged them both again and laughed.
i could hear jacob laughing as well, so i turned around to look at him.
as soon as i turned around his face blushed and his eyes lit up. he was so funny, i wonder why he was so flushed.
after greeting jacobs parents as well, we sat down around the dining room table and started off the meal by saying grace. our parents have always been super religious but haven't forced their views on us, so jacob and i usually don't go to church unless it is a holiday.
i picked at my food with my fork, taking small bites. jacob could tell something was wrong.
"y/n," jacob placed his hand on my thigh underneath the table. i shuddered and pushes his hand off of me. "why aren't you eating?" he whispered.
"i already told you i'm not hungry. i just ate." i whispered back, shaking my head and turning away to engage in the conversation. why is he so worried about me?

jacob's pov:
somethings wrong with y/n.
she isn't eating.
she's told me a hundred times that she's just not hungry but i don't believe her. hugging her earlier made my realize that. you can feel her ribs through her t-shirt, and she looks exhausted.
"y/n," i caressed her thigh. she shoved my hand off, i think i made her uncomfortable. "why aren't you eating?"
again, y/n told me she just wasn't hungry and she faced away from me to join the conversation again.
i looked down at my plate and gulped. i wish y/n felt the same way about me that i did her. i've always loved y/n, braydon and lexi know it too. she's so beautiful, and even at her worst she's all i want to be around. her personality is like no other, and her laugh reels you in. once she has you in her embrace, she never lets go. she's all about spreading love, and i love her for that.
i've been trying to show her my love towards her ever since we were little, but especially now. i never had the guts to do it in high school. but since braydon, lexi, y/n and i are all attending the same college it would be the perfect opportunity. maybe she'll catch on later. i just have to wait.