Losing You || Kim Sunoo

13. i regret...

SUNOO'S POV

I don't even know why I said these things...
I was just jealous...
And why did we even fight?

SunHee was always a selfless person and this was kinda annoying me.
She always cared about others more than herself.
She should take care of herself more.
All these years I have been trying to tell her that she should not be so selfless or else she might get herself into trouble...
And I was the one that caused trouble...

I want to talk to her but I choose not to, because I'm mad now that she knows I like Mi Young and she likes Sunghoon.

You see, I was always kinda jeaolus of Sunghoon.

(A/N: im not saying this because i think sunghoon is better rhan sunoo. I love all the members equally and im doing this only for the story :)

We know each other since we were babies. We used to play every day and grow up together until elementary school.

We did't go to the same elementary school and we didn't hang out that much.

Then we completely lost each other because of distance.

Then, I met SunHee and I managed to forget Sunghoon, I don't know how or why.

But then, we met again in middle school.

All the girls were attracted to him because of his looks and amazing ice skating skills.

That's when I started to feel jealous.

After some years, when I realised that I have a crush on SunHee I was scared that he might take her from me.

That's when I started to hate him.

I always thought that SunHee would leave me for Sunghoon even though we are best friends.

I have managed to hide all this hate I feel for Sunghoon.

I got into the house and saw my grandma sleeping on the couch.
I went to my room and locked myself in tgere trying to hold in my tears.

I regret confessing to her.
I regret haveing a crush on her.
I regret apologising to her.
I regret asking her to go to the amusement park with me.
I regret befriending her.
I regret saving her from that asthma attack years ago.

I regret my life.

She was one of the most precious things I had in my life and now I have lost her.

And that's all her fault.

She was selfless.

I cannot live without her.

I want to be by her side and help her.
Protect her at all costs.

I am too weak to face her tomorrow...

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