Losing You || Kim Sunoo

36. stay and leave

SUNHEE'S POV

I kept thinking about Sunoo...
How is he?

I wanted to call the clinic but I was too tired.

Suddenly I started shivering and I buried my head in my knees.

I kept shaking, shivering and soon my breaths turned into sobs

What if something bad happens to him?

We fought, but I still care for him more than anything...

The sobs were so loud and I kept shivering to the point that I had to check my temperature

There was nothing wrong with my temperature but I couldn't feel my legs abd I felt a sharp pain in my chest

I slowly grabbed my phone and dialed Heeseung's number

He was the only one that could comfort me at the moment

I was hoping that he would pick up, even though it was suoer late and he actually did

"Hello?" He said with his sleepy voice

"Hi...I'm sorry for waking you up, but um...I'm super worried right now. I don't know what's wrong with me, I'm shivering like crazy"

"Don't worry, Sunoo will be fine...I promise" he said and I could feel him smiling

"O-ok, thanks for picking up...You should rest now" I said and hung up

I started crying harder and harder because what if what if what if...

I kept telling myself that he will be ok, but I didn't believe everything I said

He was my childhood friend and also the person who helped me all these years

I lied on the bed and hugged my pillow tightly, thinking that it was the person I love

I covered my body with a blanket which didn't give me as much warmth as my friends give me

I realised that the things that save you in life are not things or money, but real people that you see every day and turn out to be your heroes

I closed my eyes, but the tears kept coming out

I calmed myself down eventually and managed to get 3 hours of sleep

I woke up to go to work and also check on Sunoo

After I did my morning routine, I made my way to my car and started driving quite fast to the clinic

I was holding onto my bag tightly when I enetred the clinic and jmmediately ran to Sunoo's room, hoping that he is there after the surgery

I knocked on the door and got no response, so I opened it a little bit and peeked inside the room

There was Sunoo lting on the bed, his face pale and his lips couldn't be seen since they were the same colour as his skin

I entered the room quietly and placed my bag on the vanity near the bed before sitting on the chair next to it

I saw that Sunoo's eyes were slightly open, but it seemed like he was sleeping

I checked the heart monitor and his heart rate didn't seem normal

It wasn't a flat line, but it surely wasn't good

His heart was beating really slowly and I panicked so I stood up to go call Taehyun

"Stay" I heard him whisper

"I have to go call someone-"

"I won't take your advice, so please stay here" he insisted and I could see his hands forming into little fists

I sat back down and moved the chair closer to his bed

(cringe? Um) He suddenly held my hand and flashed a smile at me that wasn't that visible

"I think...I think it's time" he said and I couldn't understand what he meant, but when he shed a tear I hung my head low because I understood

"No, don't say that..." I tried to comfort him but he shook his head and kept saying that he will die

"Do you remember when we fought some years ago? It was such a big fight for nothing...When I liked Mi Young and you at the sane time...I miss those times. And I miss my old self" he said and our tears were running like a waterfall

"You are going to be fine...I hope so" I patted his hand and he smiled at me again

"I'm suffering, but I don't show it this much right now..." he said and then silemce filled the room

"Can you...can you leave me alone for some minutes and lock the door from the outside? And then maybe come back during lunchtime?" He said and I refused to leave him even for a second but he insisted and I couldn't do anything else but leave

I did as he said, I left the room and locked the door and that was probably one of the things that broke me

I headed to my office, acting like everything is okay whenever someone asked me if something happened

I patiently waited until lunchtime...

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