Dear Alex

Part 1

Alex. I love you more than you will ever know.
You've been here for my stupid obsessive crushes, my depressive episodes, stressful times, good times, bad times, and crisis'. I couldn't thank you enough for everything you do.
I know I can be distant at times, but what I love about our friendship is that we could go months without talking and when we see each other it's like we never left. I can say anything around you without feeling judged. I can be as dumb as I am around you and you match my energy.
I've helped you when times were tough and you did the same thing for me. You've always been by my side. No matter what dumb mistake I make you help me. You are my will to live. Without you I wouldn't be here. I wouldn't be who I am today.

I love the moments in summer when we hangout. We swim, shop, and hangout nights on end. No school, less stress, just fun. Your whole family (hopefully) loves me just as much as I love them. Your mom is incredible and your sister is so caring. They truly treat me like family. I love the times I spend days with you. Multiple nights in a row. Us taking summer walks (my favourite btw), us talking on the trampoline and playing games outside with Zeus. I love the way we fit. It's never awkward with you. We never fight, thank god. I couldn't ask for a better friendship.

When I was younger I would look at tv shows and say "I wish I had a friend like that." Then I grew up, moved here, and met you. That was the best day of my life. Learning about you and our common interests really shaped me into who I am. I don't know where I'd be without you. In grade 9 when we truly became friends, I loved sitting on the benches playing Granny with you. Those were my highlights of the week. Simple moments like those are the things I love most. Just seeing you and hugging you and us being two idiots in public complete me.

We've both had incredibly tough times. I will always be here for you. Always. You mean so much to me. I will never stop loving you or the way you act. I love how we are almost the same person. I love how you have impacted my life. It's crazy to think that the last time I saw you in a school class with me was March 2020. Now that I've moved schools I see you less, and I hate that. It seems like I'm putting off hanging out with you but it's not like that, I promise. I hate pushing you away, so please don't think I am.
I'm just stressed and tired. That's no excuse, I know. We will hangout soon. I just have so many people in my life distracting me from you. I hate the guilt I feel for putting our friendship on a hold situation. I hope you're not mad at me.

I truly don't have the words to describe how much I love you.

Our friendship is better than any written friendship I've seen.