Not Her

10 Mad

I was so excited the next morning. Like how lucky could I possibly be? I've had a crush on a girl for a couple of weeks and she feels the same, but not just any girl, Amalie. Fucking Amalie. 

Another question I still hadn't figured out is how we should act at school? I mean we're both closeted. For god sake, I have a boyfriend. A boy who doesn't deserve this. I'm a horrible human being aren't I, why am I doing this to him. But wouldn't it be worse if I just kept lying to him? He deserves to be with a girl who can love him back.

My thoughts soon got interrupted by a notification on my phone.

Quinn: we're outside QUICK

I looked out and there they sat. Quinn and Casper. They were my ride to school.

I quickly collected all my stuff and put them in my bag. I quickly ran downstairs. As I was closing the door I took a last look at the empty house and then ran out the door.

"Hey fuckers" I said while Quinn was smiling from ear to ear. I had of course told Quinn all about me and Amalie, after our little date. I've only told Quinn and Sienna about the whole Amalie thing. It's not that I don't trust the others, I just don't know what Amalie thinks about telling people yet. I don't want to end a relationship before it even starts because I'm a dumbass and tell the wrong people.

I don't even know if it was the best idea to tell Sienna. She's one of my best friends but she absolutely despises Amalie. Maybe I should've thought about that sooner. Yeah yeah, what can you do?

 I trust Sienna so I think it'll be fine.

"You seem happy" Casper looked up from his phone while giving me a quick little smile.

"Maybe she's happy" Quinn replied

"Because of Marcus huh" Casper grinned.

"Uh actually, I'm going to break up with him," I said

"Oh I'm sorry Nora, what happened"

"Nothing actually, he's just not my type"

"Well that's a shame I've heard that he really liked you," Casper said while Quinn gave him a strict look. 

Yeah, I feel even worse now.

As soon as I got out of the car I saw Marcus. Poor guy

He quickly saw me and started to run up to me. He pulled me into a sweet awkward hug. 

As soon as he pulled away I caught myself starring at him. 

Why? 

Because I really needed to get a good look at him before I do this. 

There was only one thing going on inside my mind. One question I needed to ask myself before breaking up with him. Do I really want to do this, break up with this sweet guy who has been nothing but nice to me for a girl who has tortured me the last 3 years?

Yes

"Marcus, can we talk?" 

"Oh yeah, I guess" He seemed confused. 

"Uh, I don't think that this is working out, I'm sorry," I said with an awkward smile. 

 "What?" He seemed mad

"Nora, what are you even talking about? Is there someone else?"

"No, it's not," I said shyly looking down at the ground.

"Nora look at me when you speak," He said even angrier.

I looked at him.

"There is someone else isn't it," He said much more calmly than he had been before.

"No," I said for a second time

"Nora stop lying to me!" He was mad again

"Marcus can you just calm down we've been together for 2 weeks" 

"So? We have a connection Nora and you know it"

"I'm sorry Marcus," I said glancing at him one last time before I started to walk to class. 

I'm already 15 minutes late

When I got to my classroom I was sweaty and sad. Mostly from the running but also because I felt bad for Marcus.

"Glad you could join us, Miss Wayne," Mr. Phillips said as he pointed to an empty seat.

"Next time's detention," I nodded and he started to talk about something I'm not really sure I didn't pay attention.

Amalie was in this class. 

I've never noticed before. She sat with Julia. 

I quickly gave her a little smile and she smiled back. 

Julia quickly grinned at Amalie. 

Has Amalie told Julia about us? Wow, I really didn't know she was this comfortable with us. Not that I'm complaining. 

"Lunch Lunch Lunch" Quinn jumped around in the hall. 

"Quinn, calm down" I smiled at her

"I second that," Sienna said

"What? I'm just excited for lunch jeez" Quinn said making me and Sienna laugh

I quickly felt an arm dragging me into the girls bathroom. 

"Hey cutie," Amalie said giving me a peck on the lips.

"Is this going to be a thing now? You dragging me into the bathroom to make out" I laughed

"Yes," She said giving me a long kiss. We pulled away shortly after. I looked at her for what felt like an eternity. I'm pretty sure that it wasn't more than 5 seconds before Amalie broke the silence though. 

"Wanna go out tonight?"