Not Her

12 Break up with her

The car ride home with my parents was... awkward to say the least.
Instead of yelling at me for not coming home, they only talked about Nora and how sweet and respectful she was. So i guess Nora kind of saved me.

Me and Nora hanged out almost every day the next couple of days after the little incident. I enjoyed hanging out with her but don't get me wrong, the second I'm allowed to break it off with her I would.

I felt bad for Nora of course, I don't even know why I even said yes to this stupid bet. It was supposed to be a joke. Maybe I wanted to hurt her, and she deserved it. She deserved it for being a mean girl all of the middle school but maybe she had changed, it sure seems so. But I'm far too deep into this.

I and Nora spent the entire week after our date hanging out. I got a text from Nora asking to hang out again. Well, I'm her "girlfriend" now I guess so I better. It was a rainy Saturday morning in the middle of October. I quickly responded to Nora's message before I went downstairs to make myself a cup of tea. My mom sat at the kitchen table reading the newspaper. "Going out with Nora again?" Mom said without looking up from her paper. "Yes," I mumbled as I started to boil the water. "I'm so glad you're friends with such a good girl, I think it's wonderful that you're starting to get more friends". "Mom I have Julia." "Yes, yes but it's good to get new impulses once in a while".

When I was done getting ready I put on my coat and went out the door. I wanted to get something for me and Nora before I meet her so I stopped by our local coffee shop.

"Hey, can I get two cinnamon rolls and two iced coffees please," I said while still looking down? "Yes, right away," The barista said. I looked up. The girl was around my age. An extremely attractive brunette girl with the prettiest blue eyes. But I perfected Nora, to be honest. What? I'm not in love with her or anything she's just more my type I guess. On her name tag, it said Rebecca. She handed me my order. "Thanks..umm... Rebecca" I blurted out. "No problem, it's Becca actually I hate the name Rebecca" She smiled. "Oh alright I'll remember that next time" I smiled back as i walked away. "Lucky guy," She said in the distance. "excuse me" I smiled not getting what she meant. "Bringing him coffee and cinnamon rolls, my favorite I would've loved that," she said. "Uh, a girl actually". I said laughing awkwardly. "Oh cool, well I hope that it works out great for you guys" she smiled.

I arrived at Nora's house. Well, Nora appreciated my little gesture a bit too much. She absolutely showered me with love. We made hot cocoa and watched movies the whole day. "Hey you know that you're like the best person ever," Nora said completely out of the blue. "No I'm really not," I said. "Yes, yes you are," she said leaning in for a kiss

We had English the next day. One of the subjects I have with Nora. I arrived 10 minutes early. I like arriving early for class. It makes me more prepared for the class. Nora is the opposite she usually arrives 10 minutes late. I was therefore surprised when nonother than Nora sat in the classroom writing something in her book.

 
«Hey?» I said confused.
«Hey! I know you like coming to class early so I wanted to surprise you» She grinned while walking up to me giving me a quick kiss on the lips.
«Wow, Nora. That's actually really sweet» I smiled back at her. I'd never actually had someone genuinely care so much about me.
We spent the time before class talking about the weekend that we had spent together. Soon other students started walking in. In the door frame, I spotted the weirdest thing. Is Julia kissing some guy? Since when did she get a boyfriend? I looked at Nora and she was even more intrigued than me. Nora gave me a look and mouthed "Is that Marcus?". Is Julia dating Marcus now? When was she planning to tell me? When Julia walked in. I gave her a look and she just grinned back at me.

After class, I quickly went up to Julia and confronted her about this new boyfriend of hers.
"Marcus? Really? That guy's a dick" I crossed my arms.
"Well you're dating Nora Wayne, of course, you think that!" Julia said
"Can you lower your voice?! We're in school! No one knows that. It's not even real, it's a fucking bet" I whisper.
"I think you like her" Julia whispered back.
"What?! I'm not even gay. Of course, I don't like her."
"Fine then break up with her. It's already been, what 2 weeks." Julia declared
"2 weeks and 3 days" I pointed out. "And yes fine. No problem" I smiled.

 I didn't want to break it off with Nora. And yes I'm pretty sure that I was gay. I had never told anyone. Nora was the only one who knew. She's the only one that ever cared. She understands me I guess.

Why did I even do this?

Two days after my talk with Julia I invited Nora out to hang out. I was planning to break it off with her that tonight. I had tried my best to ignore Nora the days after the talk with Julia. But it was hard. Nora had become my daily energy boost. She's just so positive and so energetic. I was so sad before I got to know her. And when she wasn't there I went back to the same old me. But I didn't want to be the same old me. I wanted to be the Amalie I was with Nora. Could I possibly be that person without her? I guess I will find out. Nora called and texted me, asking if I was okay. I didn't respond. I would skip all the classes we had together. And I ate my lunch in the bathroom. I couldn't bare to see her. So she was understandably happy when she got my text. 

She rang the doorbell. I was in the middle of getting ready. I wanted to look nice for her. 

"Mom! Its Nora. Keep her company while I finish up, please!" I yelled down to my mom.

"Of course sweetie!" She yelled back.

When I was done getting ready I walked down greeting Nora asking her if she was ready to go, she said yes. 

"So do you want to go on a walk?" I asked nervously overthinking what I would say to her. 

"A walk? Are you eighty years old or something? It's Friday night!  We're going out of course" Nora said excitedly. 

"Umm" I was trying to think of an excuse but I didn't want to. What I wanted was to go to a club with Nora and have the time of our lives. "Yes!" I said giving her a big kiss. 

"Great I know this place, they don't give a fuck about IDs" My girlfriend smiled. 

And she was right. The bouncer let us right in. The music was loud. I had never been to a club before. I didn't normally like that kind of thing.  But I'm not my normal self with her. 

"Nora!" I yelled over the loud music. "You're really special, you know that right?" 

" I adore you with all my heart. You're the special one" My already super drunk girlfriend responded. The rest of the night was filled with sloppy drunk dancing and kisses. 

I guess the breakup speech got lost in the middle of it.