Not Her

15 Hallowen pt1

The last few weeks has been awful. She'd tried to talk to me a lot but my friends haven't left me alone one second. Which is something i'm very grateful for. I hadn't really gone out apart from school. My mom and dad had been worried about me. Mom told dad what i've told her. The whole gay thing. And he's been cool about it. I don't know what i've been so scared about everyone has taken it so well.

It's Friday, everyone at school was excited for halloween. Talking about which party they were attending.
That blonde girl had started to show up to class more. Which is good for her. She doesn't need to ruin her future for me. I didn't look at her in class I couldn't.
She starred at me though I could feel it. Nate, Quinn and Kayden walked up to me when class was over.
"Nora you're coming to my halloween party tomorrow right?!" Kayden asked. "Um i'm not sure" I replied to the boy. "Nora you have got to stop being so depressed about that bitch, what happened to the alcoholic party girl Nora Wayne?" Nate laughed. "Isn't it a good thing that i'm not like an alcoholic anymore?" I said. "Not the point Nora, just come it will make you feel better i promise" Nate argued. "Yeah Nora please" Quinn added. "Ugh fine i'll come" I said. "Yes we'll go shopping today" Quinn said enthusiastically.

"Quinn why do i have to have the sluttiest costume in the store?" I laughed. My best friend wanted me to buy this ridiculous slutty nurse outfit. "Nurses does such an important job why are we like sexualizing them?" I continue.
"Calm down drama queen. Don't go all political on me we'll just chose another one." Quinn replied. "What about this" I said. Quinn stopped and looked at me. "Nora. You're not going as Shrek to an halloween party." She said. "Fine fine we'll compromise. What about a cat" I said giving up on my Shrek idea. "Yes perfect. Every girl is going to be down your pants tomorrow" She laughed. "Okay you don't have to be gross about it." I laughed back.

My older sister came home yesterday. Chloe is definitely my parents favorite even though they won't admit it. She's studying to become a lawyer. Just like my parents wanted. My sister is taking over my moms business too. What a cute little family business right? But i love my sister. We have a special bond i guess. She's just a few years older than me so we can talk about everything.

My whole family was there when i came home. I could literally not remember the last time everyone was together. «Chloe!» I yelled trying to find my sister. Even though she hasn't been home for months nothing ever changes. "What!?" She yelled back. I ran up to her room. "What do you think about my costume" I asked my her. "A little basic maybe" She joked. "Quinn wouldn't let me go as shrek" I replied. "A good call, i must say". We joked a bit before she got like really real. "How are you feeling, mom told me everything that has been going"  Chloe asked. "I'm much better. Really. Especially when you're here" I said while i ran up to hug her. Sister bond

Me, Sienna and Quinn were getting ready for the party together. But there was no way in hell that i was going to that party sober. So i guess you could call it a little pre game too. When we were done getting ready Quinn drove us to Kayden's house. Since she was the only one who was sober. The house was packed with people. Packed with intoxicated teens dancing. It's been a long time since i've been to a real houseparty the last time must have been a couple months ago at least.

The whole house smelled like booze and smoke. The air was sweaty. Everyone was dressed in different costumes. I saw Nate, Jacob and Casper talking in the kitchen. Sienna and Quinn stayed back talking to some girls from our grade. Nate was supposed to be Patrick Bateman. Classic.

Casper was wearing a skeleton zip up and makeup. Jacob wasn't wearing a costume. "Hey guys" I smiled. «Hey Nora!» They said clearly intoxicated. I talked in the kitchen with the guys for a little while.

While we were talking i spotted this girl getting a beer or something from the fridge. She was wearing a pirate costume. She was pretty. She was looking at me. As drunk as i was i went to talk to her. "Hey, i'm Nora" I smiled awkwardly.
"Hey, im Becca" The browned haired girl said.
"Well Becca, you're quite pretty" I drunkenly said. She just laughed back. My decision making tonight was bad. I didn't even think. And it was so reliving, I had done nothing but think the couple of weeks. And here i am drunkenly talking to a random girl at a party. A GIRL. Who would have thought?

Becca was nice. Her smile mesmerized me. She had such a pretty smile.
We talked and danced the whole night. Apparently Becca was from another school and she knew a couple of girls from my school. In the moment all i wanted to do was hook up with this girl. And don't ask how i did it, I genuinely don't know but after a while we went up to Kayden's guest room. Nate and Quinn was already there. "Nate, Quinn out!" I yelled looking at them as I was trying to signal that i was about to hook up with this girl. They got it and left.
I jumped on the bed and that was my last memory before everything went black.