Not Her

4 That blonde

When me and Quinn arrived at the party we were instantly greeted by the smell of liquor and a house full of drunk teenagers.

I loved it

The party was at this girl Annie's house. She's a friend. We're not that close though. But she knew a lot of the same people I did. The entire school was here. And particularly one girl caught my eye, the same girl I've tried to talk to these few days. Amalie wasn't exactly the most liked girl at our school so I was kinda surprised that she was invited but she probably knew Annie from the student council or something.

I decided that this was the best time to talk to her. I couldn't lose my chance. I needed to talk to her. I didn't know why though

"Amalie, can we talk ?" I said as I walked up to her.

"No," the blonde said coldly

"Please I'm just trying to apologize" I whined

"Why? You have never apologized to me. Like ever"  Amalie said annoyed

I don't know, I feel bad I guess," I said, giving her a sympathetic look.

"You feel bad huh, great"  Amalie said as she started to walk away.

Why do I even feel bad for her? She's probably just manipulating me that girl has no real feelings whatsoever.

"NORA!" I heard as Marcus was running up to me. Great. Can't that dude just leave me alone?

"Hey, Marcus," I said awkwardly looking around for where Amalie went.

"Cool party huh" Marcus mumbled.

"Uh yeah sure I guess but I actually need to get back to Quinn she's probably looking for me" I smiled awkwardly at him one last time before I left him there.

After I found Quinn she was already on her 5th
drink. And she started to get pretty drunk, to say the least. Nate was there, luckily for me so I didn't have to take her drunk ass back to my place.

"NORA YOU HAVEN'T DRANK ANYTHING. WHAT'S GOING ON??!" Quinn yelled into my ear so I would hear her over the music.

"I just don't feel like it, I guess" I yelled back.

"OH NO, YOU AREN'T PREGNANT ARE YOU" Quinn yelled way too loud making many people at the party turn around. 

"NO OH MY GOD NO NO NO" I shook my head.

Would be pretty funny if I was though. I'm not exactly the straightest person in the world if you get what I'm saying. I lost my virginity to a boy though, when I think back that was probably when I realized that I was a lesbian.

Sorry dude.

The truth is that no one knows that I'm gay except the few random girls I've slept with. Not my parents, Quinn, or any of my other friends. I'm so fucking scared to come out if I'm being honest. I'm not planning on it either. What's the harm in being closeted until high school is over. And go on a few dates with boys here and there. So no one will ask questions. Okay, when I say it like that it sounds kinda awful.

I kind of have hope that I'll maybe meet a boy and fall in love but I don't think that's happening anytime soon.

I was pretty sick of this party. Who would have thought not drinking at a party would take away all the fun.

When I was about to get in my car I spotted a girl passed out on Annie's lawn. I started to walk to the passed-out girl when I discovered that it was Amalie. Amalie was passed out on the lawn what the fuck should I do. She would hate me if I took her back to my place but I couldn't let her be alone either.

After a lot of debating with myself, I decided to take her back to my place. She already hated me so I didn't have that much to lose.  I started to drag her arms until we reached my car. I placed Amalie in the front seat. I then started to drive back to my place.

Even though we were sworn enemies as we would describe ourselves I couldn't stop thinking about how cute the blonde looked while in the passenger seat.

"Stop it, Nora," I whispered to herself as she caught herself thinking about the blonde.

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME?

When we got to my place it was empty as always. I didn't have any siblings or anything so I was pretty much on my own when my parents were gone. They aren't bad parents or anything, they are great. I just wish they were more at home I guess.

I needed to drag the blonde girl from my car to my house. When we finally reached my house I placed Amalie in the guest room to let her sleep.

*Ring ring* I heard my phone calling downstairs. I quickly ran down the stairs seeing Quinn's name on the phone.

"What happened, why did you leave?" The girl said as I'm assuming she was still at the party.

"You seriously just noticed" I laughed while walking upstairs again to check on Amalie.

"I was busy, okay?" Quinn said.

"Amalie is in my guest room" I blurted out while catching myself staring at her a little too much.

"WHAT ARE YOU KIDDING WHY??" Quinn yelled into the phone trying to talk over the music at the party.

"She passed out on the lawn, I couldn't just leave her there," I told the other girl.

"Good luck I guess. I WANT ALL THE DETAILS TOMORROW ALRIGHT" Quinn screamed into her phone before hanging up.

As I took one last glare at that blonde girl in my guest room I caught myself smiling to myself then going up to my room to get some sleep. But whatever I did the blonde couldn't escape my mind for some reason.

Tomorrow will be fun I guess.