Not Her

17 Christmas

Noras POV

Just before Christmas vacation Amalie tried again, to convince me. It didn't work. I was determent on not to let her ruin my Christmas. Christmas has always been my favorite holiday. Simply because it was the only time my family was really together, without any work-related disturbances. I bought Amalie a gold necklace a few weeks before the last day of school. My reasoning was the "if" if we got back together. I am not sure why I was thinking this way, I was the one denying her proposals of reuniting. Even though we only were together for a short time I still had deep feelings for her. I'm the type of person who doesn't get over a person for at least a year, but I had a feeling that this love was going to take a significantly longer time. Quinn and Sienna had been the ones really comforting me these last two months. They were doing what friends usually do after their friends have broken up with someone, and talk crap about them. I was of course mad at the blonde but I still couldn't resist defending her when my friends came with the insults.

I went on a couple of dates with the girl I apparently meet on Halloween(Dont actually remember the meeting). Her name was Becca, and she was nice. It still wasn't the same though, but I had been thinking that if I and Becca got together I would forget about Amalie. It's genius, right? Becca and I had a really nice time on our coffee date in early November, our cinema date in mid-November, and the time we got drunk together in late November. At the start of December on a casual coffee date, we bumped into Amalie. That incident spooked me and I didn't talk to Becca until right before Christmas vacation. I said that I wanted to explain what happen and my reasoning for my absence. We later that day meet up and I lied to her. I didn't say anything about Amalie, I just told her that I was really caught up in schoolwork and stuff. To my surprise, she believed me and forgave me. I noticed that Amalie got jealous, I wanted her to be jealous. She had stopped trying so hard these last couple of weeks and that's the last thing I wanted, I didn't want her to forget me. I tried as hard as I could, trying to act like I was in love with Becca. I wanted to talk to her so badly, Quinn and Sienna saw that Casper too. One day, I think it was the 19th or 20th, they just straight up told me to talk to her. "Nora!" Quinn yelled. I was too focused on Amalie, trying to get her to notice my starring. "Dont you see? She's in the blondie zone" Sienna laughed. "Well she shouldn't be, that girl broke your heart." Quinn said. I still didn't hear them, Amalie was getting some books from her locker, she looked cute. "Okay, that's it!" Sienna said as shaked me, trying to get my attention. "Hey! What did you do that for!" I said confused. "If you still like her, just go talk to her!" Sienna questioned. "No! She broke her heart, Nora you deserves so much better." Quinn answered. "Oh my god, Can we agree on something please?" I said as i was trying to figure out what i was going to do. "Nora do you love her?" Sienna asked me. "Of course i do" I answered. "Then go talk to her, make plans whatever. I cant just sit around and watch you be miserable" Sienna expressed. "Nooooo! She broke her heart" Quinn stated. "Girl, and you. Ever since you and Nate took a break you have been the biggest anti-love advocate. " Sienna replied. "I'm sorry guys, i just haven't been single at Christmas in three years" She broke down crying. "Why are we always crying at school" I said as me and Sienna got Quinn into the girls bathroom. She and Nate decided to take a break mid-November. I didn't understand why they took a break, Quinn said it was simply because they needed space. Sienna and I weren't convinced, especially after we saw Nate holding hands with Madison Lawrence after Social studies late November. We hadn't told Quinn, but surely she knew. We expected them to break up officially, before Christmas Vacation. Their breakup is basically if my parents divorced, I was heartbroken for them, my two lifelong friends. i'm not sure what's going on with Nate lately, he'd been such an asshole to Quinn. Not telling her he has a new girl, who does that?

The next day on the 20th or the 21th I actually took Sienna's tip. Our eyes meet, she was on the other side of the hall. "Hey" I said walking towards her. She looked happy and surprised. "Hey" She answered confused. "I got eggnog in my bag, wanna drink?" I asked. "Still the same alcoholic Nora I see" She laughed. "Was that a yes or no?" I giggled. "Yes of course, tonight?" She asked. "No, right now" I stated. "Nora, it's 11 pm" She said. "Won't you drink at school for me?". "Nora I would do anything for you" She replied. "Great let's go to the bathroom then." I said as i started to walk towards the bathroom, she groaned and followed me.

"Nora you know we're going to get suspended if anyone catches us" the stressed blonde said. "No one is going to suspend us, it's Christmas. Calm down." I said as I took a sip of the thermos filled with Christmas liquor. We had locked the girls bathroom, in case of anyone trying to get in but people rarely came to this bathroom due to the much better girl bathroom down the hall. While the other students had class we sat there chugging down on eggnog for about an hour or so. We didn't really talk much while we sat there. We just kind of sat there, enjoying each others company. "Why did you ask me?" The blonde asked after a couple of minutes of complete silence. "I don't know, i wanted to be with you I guess." I replied. "You know i'm really sorry. I wouldn't have done it if i didn't like you." She stated. "Well you have a weird way of expressing your love." I laughed with a hint of disappointment in my voice. "Are you sure we can't get back-" the blonde said before i cut her of with a drunk and sloppy kiss. The kiss was nostalgic and beautiful even though the drunkenness took over. "You know we can't." I said as i was pulling away from her. The eggnog did no favors for me as my blood alcohol level was far too high. The blonde looked disappointed but not really surprised. Before she could respond to my answer we heard excessive knocking on the bathroom door. "Hello?" I said trying to sound as sober as possible. "Nora?! Let me in! Nate and I broke up!" Quinn sobbed. I ran to the door unlocking it. As soon as I unlocked the door I hugged my heartbroken friend. "Oh hey?" Quinn confusingly said as she noticed Amalie in the room with us. "Hey." The blonde replied. "Oh my god Nora! Are you drunk?" Quinn yelled as she noticed my drunkenness. "What? No!" I lied trying to act as sober as I could. Quinn walked over to my thermos, taking a sip of my eggnog. "God Nora it's 12 pm." Quinn giggled. "Well this isn't about me, tell me what happened." I said trying to change the topic. "Well..." Quinn said uncomfortable by the third party. "Well he said that he-" She said as she tried to sob. "It's okay." I said trying to comfort my best friend. "Well he said that he and Madison Lawrence are dating now. And i just don't get how he could throw away three years for her?!" She said continuing to sob. "Open up!" we heard from the other side of the door. "Sienna?" I asked. "Yes you idiot, it's me. Open up!" Sienna answered. "Oh my god. What the hell is going on in here. Are you guys drunk?" Sienna said scanning her surroundings. "We're having a moment." Amalie blurted. "Don't get me started on you." Sienna said pointing to the blonde. "What happened babe." Sienna asked Quinn. "We broke up." Quinn cried. "Madison Lawrence huh?" Sienna said. "Uhu" Quinn replied. We spent the next hour talking about the break up. Amalie was extremely uncomfortable the entire time, especially with the looks Sienna was shooting her. By some kind of miracle Amalie and I weren't caught. We went home to her after school and hung out at her place. "I have really missed this." Amalie said. "Me too." I smiled as I found my phone. Ever since the kiss i've realized that it wasn't fair to Becca and that a break up had to happen. But i couldn't do it right before Christmas, i'm not evil. I love Christmas, i wouldn't want to ruin the Christmas spirit for anyone. "Hey i actually got you something." Amalie smiled as she gave me a box. I opened it and it was just the prettiest golden necklace just like the one i had bought her. "Here" I said as I gave her my gift. After she opened the gift she smiled and gave me a hug. "Merry Christmas Nora" She smiled. "Merry Christmas"