fatal feelings (Devilman Crybaby)

kiss

Satan thought twice. It was a valid question. It occurred to him that Akira was probably right, but wasn't it worth it? Wasn't it worth it to be with his love? To finally not run away from each other? Maybe finally be happy?

For some time there was no answer to the question.

Should they just continue wandering around the nothingness together, or would it be better for both of them to have a life back on earth with other people?

Since there had been silence between the two for a while, Akira decided to sit down, even though he didn't really expect to have to wait long for an answer. When Satan then noticed that Akira had already sat down, he sat down next to him and instead of giving an answer, he now asked a question himself.

"Do you want the earth to exist again?"

Surprised, Akira looked at Satan again.

"What would you do if the world existed again, Ryo?"

Another question. Akira couldn't really answer Satan's question. Not that he didn't want humanity, his friends, family and so on, to exist again. No, that would be wonderful and all, but what if it wasn't that easy, what if it somehow went wrong. Although Akira really couldn't say that, he didn't want him to make a mistake and experience the same pain again.

Satan now also looked at Akira.

"Yes, what would I do?"

Akira was very confused, what did Satan mean by that?

"You should know that?"

The gentle way Akira said that now confused Satan slightly.

"But I have no idea."

"And you would just do it like that? Aren't you thinking about what might be?"

Akira asked further.

"Think? Yes, of course I'm thinking, but no matter what, if that's what you want then there's nothing I have to doubt."

With this sentence, Satan turned his head forward and looked into the distance.

Now Akira was even more confused than before.

"Why is my opinion so important to you?"

"Because I love you."

Say satan. It wasn't that hard for him to say that now.

Somehow Akira knew this was coming. Every time he heard Satan say that he wanted so badly to believe he really meant it, but something inside of him doubted it every time. Akira knew that it would actually be impossible.

"Because you love me, would you do anything for me? Even though you would simply wipe out your genius plan, which worked perfectly, and all the work behind it? Are you sure?"

Satan really didn't care anymore.

"Yes."

That's what he answered.

"You don't believe me, don't you, Akira?..."

Akira didn't believe him a lot anymore.

"What do you mean?"

"That I love you! You don't believe it, do you?"

Repeated Satan.

"You couldn't love me!"

Akira answered in a higher tone. He really meant it, because in his eyes both Ryo and Satan were Heartless. And on top of that, Akira's heart still partly belonged to Miki, didn't it?

"You don't even know what that really means! You have no idea what it feels like to love someone! So please stop saying that over and over again."

Slightly excited, Akira said everything again in a very loud tone.

In saying so, he hurt something in Satan. But Satan did not show this and remained calm.

After that neither of them said another word, neither did they look at each other anymore.

A while later Akira lay back and closed his eyes. His thoughts accompanied him briefly until he finally fell asleep later.

Satan, on the other hand, couldn't turn a blind eye, not that he needed to. Since what Akira had said to him, he felt kind of weird. Did Akira really not believe him? Did he perhaps say something wrong? Why wouldn't Akira want Earth to exist again? He couldn't understand something, no right now he couldn't understand nearly anything. Strange, since this feeling came to him, he understood less and less.

After some time Satan turned his head to Akira to see what he was doing.

"Are you sleeping?"

Satan asked very quietly, when he didn't get an answer, he turned to him with his whole body and looked down at him. The way Akira slept gradually reminded Satan of the time Akira was dead. He lay just as motionless, only with the difference that half of him wasn't missing. Satan panicked a little. He took Akira's head and laid it gently on his lap, then put his hand on his chest. Feeling Akira's heart pounding gradually calmed him down, that way he knew he wasn't dead.

Satan looked at Akira's face and felt something trigger a weird feeling in him. He leaned forward and lifted Akira's head slightly.

Then he kissed him.