You Could Be Mine

Slash- Part 18

Slash

Shit.
Izzy, Axl and I stare at each other, frozen in place. "How much did you hear?" Axl asks, his voice barely above a whisper. "Everything." Izzy answers, his voice just as soft. Axl looks at me, eyes wide. "I-I don't know what's going on. It's none of my business, so I'm just going to leave." Izzy says, his eyes moving between me and Axl. "Don't you fucking dare." Axl snaps, surprising both me and Izzy. "We need to talk."
Axl walks to Izzy grabbing his arm and dragging him out of the kitchen. I stand still for a while, unsure of what to do. But mostly I was hurt. My heart felt like it was going to explode.
A mistake? Did he regret everything? Did I? I sighed loudly and left the kitchen, starting to head to my room. Duff pokes his head out of the main room and meets eyes with me. "Are you ok?" he asks, rubbing underneath his nose. "Yeah." I lie.
"You got anymore of that coke?"

When I wake up I don't remember a thing. The only thing I remember is pain. Lots and lots of pain. But it wasn't physical pain. It felt as though my heart had been ripped from my chest and shoved back in. I open my eyes and try to figure out where I am. I slowly sit up, my head throbbing. I look around, finding an empty baggie of coke next to me. I slowly help myself up, nearly stumbling over Steven's passed out body behind me. "Shit." I groan, kicking him with my feet. Steven doesn't move. "God damnit Steven!" I yell, panicking and kicking him harder. Steven grumbles, but doesn't wake. I sigh, relieved he was ok. I start to walk away when I notice Duff sleeping on the couch, looking equally as awful as Steven did. I walk to him and shake his shoulders. "Duff. Buddy, you ok?" I ask, earning a groan from him, his eyes slowly blinking open. "What? Where are we?" he asks, rubbing his forehead gently. "The hotel room." I answer, sitting on the floor besides the couch. Duff lies back down on his side, shutting his eyes. "Hey, keep your eyes open. Don't wantcha' to slip in your sleep." I say, earning a scoff from Duff. "Yeah right. I've fallen asleep plenty of times after taking something. I'm still here, aren't I?" he asks, raising his eyebrow. I nod my head, deciding to keep my thoughts to myself. I had seen plenty of people overdose in their sleep. Some I cared about, others I didn't. I couldn't lose my best friend. I bite my lip softly, remembering Axl. Maybe it was best we forgot about our situation. I couldn't lose him. Especially as a friend. But I didn't want to lose him as a lover. But I knew I would have to.
"Slash?" Duff asks, pulling me from my thoughts. "You good?" he asks, sitting up on his elbows slightly. I nod my head, looking away from Duff. "Guys?" a tired voice asks, drawing my attention to the now awake Steven. "What day is it?" he asks, sitting completely up, his eyes barely open. I laugh, looking back at Duff, who smiles in return. "Oh Popcorn. What would we do without you?" I ask, moving to ruffle his hair. He smiles, shutting his eyes. "I dunno man." he answers, grinning widely. I smile, standing up and helping Steven stand. He groans, making a soft gagging sound. "You alright, man?" I ask, moving Steven to sit down next to Duff. "Fuck man! Don't throw up over here!" Duff yells, scooting away from Stevie. "Chill out! He hasn't done anything." I yell, gently rubbing Steven's shoulders. "I'm good, I'm good." Steven says, pushing my arm away. I sit on the floor, in front of the couch, moving my knees to my chest and resting my forehead on them, my hair framing around my knees. I sigh softly, shutting my eyes and enjoying the darkness. For once, it felt nice. "You alright, Slasher?" Steven asks, tapping on my shoulder. "Mhm." I reply, not moving. "We better find Ax and Izzy. We gotta show tonight." Duff says, as I open my eyes and stare at my knees. "You guys go find them. I'm gonna take a shower." I mumble, slowly starting to stand up. "Slash?" Steven asks again, but I don't acknowledge him. I walk away and head straight to the bathroom. I open the door and shut it, locking it. I remove my clothes and carelessly throw them onto the ground. I turn the shower knob on and wait for the water to warm. I stand near the shower, naked and cold, my feelings all swimming in my stomach. I didn't know if I was anxious or sick. I sometimes couldn't tell the difference. I step into the shower, the warm water instantly hitting my skin. I sigh, and shut my eyes, moving under the stream from the shower, letting it take over my body and hold me. For a second I imagine being in Axl's arms. And just for a split second, I thought I was.

Hi everyone!!! Thank you for reading this next chapter! I hope you enjoyed it!! Stay safe and have a great weekend!!- Adler 😘