You Could Be Mine

Axl- Part 17

Axl

"What's up, man?" Izzy asks, knocking gently on the bathroom door. I lean against the other side, inside the bathroom. "Nothing." I answer, pulling my knees to my chest. "Bullshit, Ax. You've been avoiding me and Slash. Please talk to me." he says, a small bang coming from the other side. "Izzy, please. Nothings wrong. I'm just... homesick." I lie, shutting my eyes. "Mhm." Izzy responds.
"Well if you don't want to talk to me, I'll be in the other's hotel room. They ordered pizza. Talk to me when you're ready." he says, his footsteps disappearing down the hall. I heard the door open and close.
I wanted to scream. I let out a low scream, my fingers moving to grip onto my scalp. "Fuck!" I yell out, tears stinging my eyes. "Fuck! Fucking damnit!"
I slam my fist into the door, my knuckles burning. My eyes glaze over with tears as I punch a small dent in the door. I gently hold onto my fist, falling over onto my side. "Fuck you." I babble, tears streaming down my face. My body curls up into my chest, the cool tile floors collecting my fallen tears. I lie on the ground, crying everything I had in my system.
Why was this so complicated? What was I even crying about?
I moved onto my back and laid my arms and legs out, staring up at the ceiling.
Slash.
He was all I could think about.
I wanted him.
How could I not? He was everything I wanted. Everything I needed...
But I couldn't have him.
I wasn't gay. After all this time I knew I wasn't.
I didn't like men... but I liked Slash.
I shut my eyes and started to cry again. I could feel all of my energy leave my body with each tear that fell.
What did I want? Who did I want?
I sat up and stared at the door, the wood had a small dent and a few drops of blood on it. I looked down at my knuckle, which was starting to bruise, and had small cuts that were bleeding from the small wounds. "Great." I mumble, slowly standing up and grabbing a small white towel. I turned the faucet on and ran the stream onto the towel, placing the semi wet towel on my knuckles, grimacing at the pain.
It would have to do for now. I waited for a while until the pain had almost completely disappeared. I threw the towel into the corner of the bathroom and unlocked the door, leaving the room.
I had to talk to Slash.
We had to talk about our situation. I had to let him know that I wasn't gay. I had to tell him it was a mistake. On both of our ends.
I go to my room and grab my flannel, wrapping it around my waist. I take my key card and walk out of the hotel, turning to the room next door. I knock, with my non-wounded knuckles. Duff opened the door, a smile on his lips. "Hey Axl. Come in. We got pizza and some booze." he says, letting me in. I follow Duff inside, who takes me into the main room. The others are sitting on the couches, eating pizza and drinking. Slash sat comfortably on the couch, his sunglasses on his face. He ate a slice of pizza, with grease and cheese dripping onto his shirt. He had a Jack Daniels in his other leather gloved hands.
Why was he wearing gloves? I couldn't deny it looked hot, but it was stupid.
Steven smiled at me, waving with his feet. "Wassup!" he yells at me, smiling that huge smile of his. I smile back at him and take a slice of pizza. Izzy nods to me, taking a sip of his drink. I sit down besides Slash, earning a strange look from him. "We need to talk." I whisper to him, taking a bite of my pizza. Slash nods his head, taking a sip of Jack. Duff joins us in the main room, holding something behind his back, a stupid grin on his face. "Whatcha got there, Duff?" Steven asks, trying to balance a beer bottle on his head. Duff shows us a small baggie of coke, his smile widening. "Fuck yeah!" Steven yells out, eagerly jumping up and going to Duff. "Where'd you get that?" Slash asks, biting his plump bottom lip. "Some guy on the streets offered it to Alan, I bought it when he denied it." Duff replies, shrugging his shoulders. "Who wants some?" he asks, earning an excited grin from Steven. "Nah I'm alright." Slash replies, surprising me. "What?" I blurt out, turning to look at him. "Your loss. Axl, Iz? You guys want any?" Duff asks, Slash raising his eyebrow. "No, maybe later." I say, placing my pizza down on the table and walking out of the room. I walk down the hall, into the kitchen and open the fridge, pulling out a beer bottle. I search for the can opener, when I hear someone clear their throat. I look up and see Slash, standing at the entrance of the kitchen. "Hi." he says, softly. "Hi." I respond, my thumb grazing over the sharp ridges on the bottle cap. "You said you wanted to talk?" Slash asks, stepping closer to me. "Yeah." I answer, setting the bottle down. Slash stops a few feet away from me. I watch him and resist all my urges to jump into his arms and kiss him. "Well?" Slash says, pulling me from my thoughts. "Oh- I um. Well I needed to tell you something." I say, stumbling through my words. "Ok? Go on." Slash says, starting to sound irritated. "Fuck. You make this so damn hard." I say, turning away from him and pushing my long hair away from my face. "Make what hard? Axl, what's going on?" Slash asks, turning me around to face him. I stare at Slash and push away from him. "I can't do this anymore. We can't do this anymore."
Slash watches me, his face contorting into confusion.
"What? Can't do what?"
"This! The kissing, the screwing, the gay shit! I'm not gay, Slash! I don't care if you are or not, but I'm not. This was just a mistake. A confusing mess. You're my best friend and I can't lose you! We're nothing more, nothing less." I yell, my frustration finally releasing out of my body. Slash stares at me in shock. "I- I don't know what to say." Slash mumbles, his eyes starting to dim. My heart slowly started to break.
Was that really what I wanted?
"Um guys? Is this a bad time?" a voice asks. I freeze, my heart stopping. I slowly turn around, in shock, and meet eyes with an equally shocked Izzy.

Hey everyone!! Happy Valentine's Day! I hope you guys are enjoying your day and enjoyed this chapter! Sorry for it kind of being sad on a supposed to be happy day! But don't worry! Things will get better! Love you all!- Adler 💖💖