My Heart Beats For You

guilt

Next day Sid woke up in the morning and saw Sana sleeping beside she was still in her party dress.
His head was aching and he pressed his temples and tried to recall yesterday event and all the flashbacks came in front of his eyes…. He was jealous seeing Sana dancing with Sam, how he got drunk and confessed his feelings to Shehnaaz and how he was forcing himself on her and at last he remembered her slap when he was forcing her, he pulled his hairs in frustration “shit how can I do this to her? How can I force my Sanu” a lone tear escaped from his eyes and he looked towards Sana who was sleeping peacefully beside him, his eyes fell on her neck and he noticed a purple mark there making her feel more guilty
He immediately got up from the bed and in a rush the vase at her side table fell on floor making a noise and Sana opened her eyes in a second and she looked towards Sid who was standing with a teary eyes
“Sid…” she whispered and got up

“I am sorry Shehnaaz” he said breaking her heart

“he is regretting again” she thought as a lone tear fall from her eyes

“she is upset and hurt from me….”

“I am ashamed of myself Sanu for forcing myself on you…. I… will…leave…. I will go away…. I am sorry” he said crying making Sana confuse
“you did a right thing by slapping me I deserve that… I am such a rogue… I deserve to be punished” he said while Sana got up she was getting frustrated by his words “why he always pre assume things”
“no… don’t touch me… main ganda hu… I am bad” he said getting away , he joined his hands in front of her “I am sorry…. Tune and uncle ne mujhe kitna pyaar diya but I messed up everything, I am ashamed of myself please forgive me and if you want then you can slap me again” he said and Sana actually did making Sid cry more
“what do you think of yourself haan” she said holding his collar
“ I am sorry” he said looking down making her more frustrated

“Sorry… for what?” she yelled

“for forcing myself on you”he said

“and what about your confession? Are you sorry for that also?” she said making him look at her

“no…. Sana….it am not sorry for that…. I… I love you…. I really do…. I know that I am late in understanding my feelings and I have hurt you but I love you I always did but I was not able to understand my feelings and yesterday when I saw you dancing with them I felt insecure as all the ladies were complimenting you and even Sukh uncle want you to get hitch with that Sam” Sid said making Sana shock
“and I was disturbed by all these I didn’t want to loose you, and all these things hampered me but Sam is too person, he is of your status too unlike me” he said while Sana was emotional wreck listening him, she doesn’t know how to react and she left him

“I love you so much Sana…. Earlier I wanted to win your heart again but now I think I am not suitable for you…. I have always ignored you and your feelings I fail to recognize my feelings for you but still Sanu if you will ever need me I will there for you” saying so he left the room while Sana fell on fall crying she doesn’t know how to react, the first heartbreak had made her skeptical about everything she wants to run to him and tell him that she loves him too but she has no courage to do so.
She was crying when she heard her fathers voice “Sana Sid where are you?” he yelled from down stairs while Sana got up and immediately wiped her face and went down to her father

“Sanu you haven’t changed your dress yet? And when did you and Sid left last night that also even without informing me?” he asked

“papa actually I wasn’t feeling well so Sid brought me home and we wanted to inform you but you were out sight” She said looking down

“Sanu what happen…. Are you alright now?” he asked in a worried tone
“yes papa I am good now” she said tried not to look at her father’s eyes